i am a les what can you do..

INVADES

2004-09-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

desiree jie INVADES

sorry i'm just so boredd so decided to invade ur blog.

DESIREE ROX!! =))

LOL

BERLINE ROX AS WELL!! =))

okok, back to mugged up on my math

mei, u take care alright? Love ya. hugs

Desiree

MiXeD fEeL!NgS.. ;x

2004-09-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday went to celebrate mid-autumn festivalwith my friends ya.. Hehehe! Hmmm.. Was fagging too.. My ex actually know how to fag?! *Gosh*
Think he mixed with the bad accompany sia.. Anyways, who cares? *Laughs*
Well.. Was very tired yesterday la.. Hmmm.. But was kinda stress.. I used candles to create Jovi's Name.. It's not very nice.. *darN*Stupid me*
Only the letter 'I' very nice lei.. I took a photo of it.. *smiles*
Too bad, Mel never save the photo.. Cos her camera-phone effects better than Jie Kai's camera-phone effects ma.. *sobs*

Well.. Today after school, i changed, then go jogging with my sister sia.. Went for remedial also lei.. *smiles*

Really jogged like hell.. Hmmm.. jogged more than 4.8km i think la..

My uncle is getting married on 20th Nov sia! Hehehe! So happy.. Excited also! But then, once again, that day, sure is a sad day for me.. Every 20th of a month, I'll sure be sad.. ;(

DeAd

2004-09-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

I'm dead! REally tired.. Ain't feeling well.. Got grastic this morning sia.. Dun really have appetite tiday sia.. Dunno why la.. Hehehe ;)

Hmmm.. Happy that Miss Sim finally smile again.. Well, halfway through test, Jovi messaged me.. Really happy la please! ;)
My sister always make me jealous sia.. Always said, "Hahaha! Jovi sent me heart in fridae lei" Too bad she never send you sia".. Stupid sister.. Kaox! ;(
I'm still messaging with Jovi lei.. Hehehe! ;)
Halfway messaging, halfwway writting blog lo.. Hmmm.. BLur Leong today so CUTE!!! He smell nice too.. Dunno what perfume he using sia.. *Laughs*
Hopefully he never create troubles in school le sia..
Wells, guess what, I got this muslim indian brother form sec 2.. He's very nice to me! A very out-going guy sia! Love him lots! Love all my brother lot lots! Hehehe.. My cutest brother is still REYNOLD ;) *Huggies*

Well.. sister at her friend's house lo.. *sighs*
Hardly talk to her la.. She always sleeps later than me sia.. *basket*

Alrites, i gonna go sleep liao le la.. ;)

T!RInG dAy

2004-09-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

Oh man, was so tired today.. Taken my lunch then chatted with Ivan, Wei chong & Eileen.. They called me.. Heard that my red spec spoiled sia.. STUPID GUYS.. Gonna get scolding from me on monday.. Dun give a fucking shit who they are.. They better pay for my specs or get it repair sia.. I won't let them off easily..

Messaged with Mel for awhile.. ;)
She understand how i felt this afternoon.. Abt my nice red spec! ;)

I think of changing myself.. I mean image la.. hehehe! Wat you guys will react if i cut short hair? I mean, really short hair.. I even shave away all my eye-brows before.. There's nothing I dun dare to do yas.. ;)

What if I'm bald? What if i cut a new hair-style that's really very short? Shorter than some guys in my class?.. How people will react? I really wanna know sia.. Hehehe! ;)

I LOVE my ah gong! He's very CUTE sia!!! His hair very soft & his short short short de, all stand up sia.. Hehehe! ;)
THen I call him baby rugrat.. That cartoon! *arghs* so cute la pls! ;)

Well, i've decide, decide to forget everything about her, forget about what we done before.. Just trying real hard to forget abt everything we used to share & have before.. I'm really trying.. So just leave me alone.. Hopefully we don't contact one another, it will be better.. Cos once you contact me, my feelings, memories that we had, just come back into my mind again.. I really hurt by you in many ways girl.. So just let me be alone.. I hate the way we're behaving.. I hate the way you're treating.. Yet i love you so much.. *sighs*

{."~Heart-broken, confused, hatred & sad berline signed out~".}

HAPPY

2004-09-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

People, i'm so happy! Happy that actually there's still straight-forward people like me.. Laughs! I won't say alot ppl re-post my bulleting post in friendster.. But i'm happy enough to see that my schoolmates support to all those statements.. lols!

Went study with Mel, then kanna chase out from Plaza mac.. went to beauty world mac then.. *smileS*
blah blah bah.. Then went home tk $ frm dad for dinner.. Mel waited downstairs..
Hmmm.. took dinner at plaza Kopitiam sia..

Love my day! So happy..
Ohhs.. I'm so scare! Scare that that BITCH will get someone to whack me up.. *Laugs*
try to lay a finger on me then.. Her brother msg me in friendster, scolded me.. I'm so afraid lei.. someone help me please.. OH PLEASE LA, how on earth will i scare an ANT like THEM? Come and get me la.. *Laughs*
It don't seems that it's tt BITCH brother who msg me sia.. In fact, i think that is tt BITCH use tt acc to scold me..

Haiyo! A BITCH IS FOREVER A BITCH SIA! CANT CHANGE THE FACT SHE IS A BITCH & SHE KEEP DENYING FOR WHAT SHE'VE DONE.. WHAT FOR SHE REACT SO MUCH? She's still a kid la please..

Hahahas! Haix! I'm missing so many people..
I miss:

Mel
Beth
Jake
Jovi
Nigel
CLay
Marissa
Calvin
Sean
Kris
Charmaine
Loraine
Ryann
Ian
Zuer
Gekko
Desiree
Daren
Dee
Josh
Jove & so many more.. ;(

2004-09-25T11:05:00.000+08:00

Later going study with Mel at plaza.. Just me & her! *winks*
Hmmm.. Yeterday was in rush, so yesterday's post is kinda yucky.. Hahaha! ;x
As mentioned, went to lips cafe with sister lo.. Sisters' Day again as usual.. 2 bungs working there sia! The red shirt bung make me think of Keith.. Their face abit alike ma.. The black shirt bung is very poilte & nice too.. Hehehe! She's nice looking! Got guai guai & yandao look in her.. *Drool*

Well, kinda happy cos I'm close to reynold now.. Not like last time sia.. Cos of tt BITCH in my class, Reynold can't be close with me.. Or Else tt BITCH will SCOLD him.. *poor him*
But now, no more! He's free! Yesh, he dumped her! *a good one* ;)
Finally, Reynold got his freedom & be who he is le.. *Winks*

I'm so tired la please.. First time I wake up so early on weekends sia.. Hmmm.. Now listening to some music.. Currently, the song playing is 'Tipsy' by Chingy.. Oh man! Can't wait till next year then sister bring me to monks.. Shall have fun till dawn sia.. *laughs*

Called Jovi yesterday while I'm at Lips cafe with my sister.. Actually wanna go see see her de.. In the end never.. Scare of a UNCLE working at the salon sia.. Hahaha..
Well, she didn't pick up my call lei.. Kinda sad la.. But she returned my call in the end! Yepp! So happy la please..
After we put down, messaged with one another.. Then she wanna sister's number.. So give lo.. Jovi asked her go MOX lei.. *Jealous jealous*
Aiya, never mind la.. Just friends ma, no need jealous de.. *Hummph*

Took bus 36... Thought that the bus will go to Esplanade sia.. In the end, go to Tanjong Katong lei.. *Laughs* Then alighted at don't know which bus stop, cross over to the opp bus stop to take bus 36 to Suntec there.. *Laughs*
Just then, Jovi called me again! So happy sia! She asked if me & sister still in town, then can meet up sia.. She went to Lucky Plaza to buy something.. What a waste.. Why must I leave town so early? Ah bo I can meet up with Jovi for awhile with my sister ma.. It doesn't matter if it's 1 minute or a few seconds.. I don't mind.. As long as I can see her, I'll be happy enough..

Suppose to call her yesterday's night but I didn't.. Was too tired & quite sick.. Then sleep after I chatted with Melissa yesterday..
DArn! I gonna lost weight I tell you guys! By next year, school reopen, I gonna be at least 48kg.. Then slowly reduce to 45kg..
I'm so FAT.. Haix! Die die also must find a way to slim down..
I wanna go tanning once my exams over.. Ah bo, next week i going tanning with my sister at sentosa.. ;)

PaS+ FeW dAyS

2004-09-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

Well, these few days ain't good mood.. Was sick, pissed off too.. Went town with Sister just now.. Hmmm.. Well, went to Lips Cafe to have a drink & some foods.. Hmmm.. Been busy cos studying ma.. I so GUAI sia.. *LAughs*
You guys take care, will update my blog if i have the time, okays?
*huggieS*

S+Up!D wOrLd..

2004-09-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

Woah! It's been one week since I touch computer sia.. Didn't log in to blogspot to blog for onr week.. Luckily I got my xiao cai to help me check my fridae profile! Huggies boy! *sister always, okays* ;)

Well, went town these few days lo.. Watched 'Ghost' with my friends at town yesterday.. Friday went town to watched that show with sister too.. Before catching the movie yesterday, went to Lips cafe to study with my darling mel mel ;)
Too bad, that two bungs not working yesterday la.. *laughs*

Hmmm.. Friday saw Shah at Plaza mac, so happy! *so cuteee*
Was at mac with my sister & her friend lo.. *smiles* Took some photos ;)
Photograpy my favourite! Can't left me out..

Sorry peeps, been busy with studies ya.. Can't afford to retain or fail sia.. Really gonna buck up le la.. *sighs*
I only passed 3 subjects.. So pathetic sia.. *cries*

Messaged with Jake Ng.. She's so sweet, really nice sia! Messaged with Jovi also.. Kinda pissed off by her messages.. Don't know why sia..

Well, chatted with darling mel mel too.. Girl, really thanks for listening to me.. ;)
*huggies*

Oh man! I quarreled with someone & the quarrel turned out nasty.. Give me a break la.. I'm really tired & got no time for all these childish games..

Teck Lee(my ex) called me.. He been contacting me for a long time.. Don't have feelings for him le.. As freinds still okay la.. *laughs*
COs last time his words simply turn me off.. That's why I think that guys treat girls the same la.. ;x

I miss Marissa, Ian, Ryann, Calvin & Lonely boy.. *kaox*
Like long time never see them le sia.. After exams, gonna go tanning every twice a week i guess.. *smiles*

Alrites, i gonna sleep le.. Morning still gonna give Jovi morning call to wake her up for work.. *giggles*

P!SsEd Off..

2004-09-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

Fuck la Fuck this fucking idiotic world! I hate those people out there!!! Stop asking me to go this place go that place with you!!! I hate it! Turn to me when your stead is not with you.. When your stead is with you, you won't bother about your friends.. BITCH!!! I dislike the ways you're treating your friends!!! I HATE IT!!!

You're so ungrateful! When you need help, I tried my best to help you.. When I just wanna a listening, where the hell are you?!!! At 'his' house doing what?!! Enjoying yourselves to the fullest, leaving me alone? What kinda friend are you?!!!

I'll wash my hands off you! I won't wanna bother about you anymore! I've learnt to be selfish, heartless! You taught me these! I'm just treating you back the same way as you treated me!!!

Slept till afternoon today.. Used computer la.. blah blah blha.. Taken dinner & stuffs.. Dad came home, started to nag at me again.. For godness sake, why can't he just SHUT THE FUCK UP and let me have some peace?!!! Life is so miserable for me now la PLEASE!!! Naggings here & there, quarrels over small fucking stupid matters.. I had it enough la!!! How I wish I can really leave this fucking world.. A world of my own, peaceful & quiet.. *DarN*

I wanna get outta of this house.. I wanna move out.. I HATE studies!!! But i need to strive for my goal.. Gonna study hard, work work work & earn money! Get outta of this house.. *arghs*
I ain't feeling good.. really bad.. I'm lost.. So many things happening around me.. Always wearing a mask, pretending to be happy.. I AIN'T happy at all.. The day I she left me, she hurted me badly, the day I lost all my confidence.. I've nothing.. nothing left behind..
*gosH* my trust for everybody is fading really fast.. Can't find someone or a soulmate for me to trust TOTALLY at all.. *sIgHs*

SuCkS..

2004-09-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

What a day?! Woke up in the afternoon like that lo.. Forgot to give Jovi morning call to ask her go work sia.. I put alarm clock but I turned it off sia.. ;x
Lotsa people smsed me in the morning sia.. But only saw their smses when I woke up sia.. lols!
Taken my breakfast & lunch.. Ate mee po! Hehehe! ;)
Went to Ping's house at 2.30pm.. Jonathan was at her house too.. Doing some revision la.. Ping was sick.. Worried for her.. Hais! Took her to doctor together with Jonathan.. Sent her home after that.. Help her put eye drops & 'feed' her with medicine.. *laughs*
Hope she will get better soon sia! ;)
What a friend can do? Just take care of her when she's unwell.. Hey peeps, don't you all think that I like her or I got feelings for her sia.. She's a STRAIGHT & is attached to a GUY already sia!

I'm always good to those who deserve my respect wor!..
Asked her to rest more, then lie on her bed with her.. Jonathan sat at the corner of the bed sia.. Accompanied Ping till 5.30pm then left her house with Jonathan lo.. *smiles*

Reached home le then cooked rice, after that used computer.. Chatted with my friends.. Somebody's words simply turned me off.. Not Desiree Jie, not Pat(yaya's friend), but another girl whom I dun really know la.. *pUkE*

Alrites, gonna go take my dinner le & gonna watch channel 8 ;)

Fr!DaY.. aRgHs

2004-09-10T18:58:00.000+08:00

Went out in the morning as usual.. Met with friends, went to Beauty World Mac to do holiday assignments.. Met sister in town alone.. Shop around.. Wore abit boy boy today sia.. Then people giving me awful & weird glances.. After that went to Causeway Point.. Sent sister there.. She met with Gabrielle whom is from TP de.. *laughs*
Head home after that.. Used computer.. Check my friendster, editing my blog template for next month new blog skin, check my hotmail, shatted with friends, logged on to fridae to edit my profile.. Just a slight change.. nothing much thou..
Might be meeting Nigel to pass her pants.. *smiles*
Waiting for her call now.. Kaox! Time really files sia..
I got my end of year holidays planned le! 2 months of holidays, i'll be going tanning twice or thrice every one month.. Slacking with friends, buming at one another house.. Burst the house with music.. Get drunk, mad! Sing & Dance like hell.. Flirt around, play around.. Be a crazy, noisy & funny girl! Set le ;)

Don't think i'm a bitch cos i'm single, nothing wrong with all that what i wanna do.. *laughs*

I'm prepared to retain next year also.. Slack too much this year.. If really retain, i'll really ruching & not SLACK anymore.. Maybe I choose to drop to Normal.A BUT pick up Express work.. Like that i can be first in Normal.A lo.. *laughs*
*touch wood*prays hard i won't drop NA*

HoW ! SpEn‡ mY dAy..

2004-09-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm.. Met Eileen in the morning.. Both of us kinda have some problems with our life.. Went esplanade.. Then met up with Jonathan Tan at town.. Lotsa things happened.. Not a good day for me.. Cried & my heart is really pain la please..
Laughed a little.. Trying to pretend that i'm happy when i'm not.. I dun wanna Jonathan to ask me why..
He sent me home..
Watched Singapore Idol.. Used computer for quite a long time.. Did fell asleep just now.. *laughs*

tt's all ;)

*creating a new blog for next month* ;)

hA!S..

2004-09-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

Ain't feeling good.. My day is boring.. REal bored! Think tomorrow gonna meet up with Zuer & get my letter.. *grins*
Kinda wanna push myself to the limit! Wanna make myself very tired, wanna die so much.. Getting so fu*ked up everyday sia.. Kinda wanna change my image.. But no $ how to change my image from head to toe? *Laughs*
I wanna a new hair-cut.. I need to think what type of hair style I wanna.. I wanna a werid hairstyle.. That nobody has it.. *Piece of shit* that time sister cut my hair for me.. Hair length is from short to long de.. Then so many people cut that hair style.. *AH BISH*

I real wanna get out of this FUCKING HOUSE LA!!! So noisy!!! Yesterday went to visit grandpa at Ang Mo Kio Hospital.. See him in this state very heart-pain..
Why everyone's families so peaceful, happy & cheerful?
My family simply just SUCKS to the CORE la! Shoutings here & there.. ESPECIALLY in the MORNING! How i wish I'm deaf, blind & mute.. I rather live in the world of darkness with PEACE! I HATE the LIFE i'm having NOW!!! ;(

i LOVE my sister tho she's unreasonable at times.. She knows me best overall.. *smiles*

gArFiE|D mOv!E!!! ;)

2004-09-07T13:06:00.000+08:00

Went to school in morning for remedial, then went to eat.. Hmmm.. Watched my friends eating.. I'm ON DIET! So, never eat la.. Nigel called me, had a long chat with her.. Met her & her friend with Eileen for a while.. Head home after that..
Taken my bath, then went out with siblings & mum.. Went to Causeway point to watch 'Garfield'.. NICE SHOW!!! Must go watch ar!!!
Hmmm.. Taken dinner at Delifrance.. There's a bung working at there.. Her hair kinda funny.. *Laughs*
She look alike Ian.. That's why I keep on looking at the bung.. ;x
Haix! ;( So sad! I'm freezing la PLEASE! Never bring jacket.. Only if she's there to hug me.. *DaRn* Thinking of past times again.. ;(

Hmmmm.. Granny called, chatted with her for ahile.. Reached home at about 8pm nearly 9pm.. Granny called from malaysia.. Kinda miss my cousins now! *ArGhS*
Miss Nasnas, susu, tei tei, orange they all.. (tt's their nicks) ;x

Now chatting with friends in MSN, somehow not my usual self la.. Keep on flirting like nobody's business sia.. *oPpS*

Hey peeps! NIGEL SAID SHE WANTS ME! GOSH! I WANNA HER TOO! ;x
Nope.. Kidding la, we two very playful de.. *Muahahaha!*

Might be meeting Zuer Piggy at NP to get my letter.. Can't wait! ;(

PoN sChOoL

2004-09-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

Hey, i pon school on thursday, then went to meet 3 bungs at different time & different venue.. Well, was sick, but i still pon school.. kinda lame but i can't stay at home.. mum forced me go school.. Hmmm.. went to meet Nigel at Bedok interchange, then went to Calvin's house, after that met up with Ian.. took pants from Nigel.. Calvin's dogs are noisy.. Keepp on barking sia.. Very active lei.. Run here & there.. I'm scare of dogs like that la PLEASE! ;(

Hmmm.. got lotsa things happen.. Don't wanna say but I shall keep them as memories in my mind la.. Some things are not mend to share with people up there reading my blog.. -Laughs-

Today was late for school.. Went school with Eileen lo.. Hmmm.. fucking shit, morning quarreled with mother.. Then went school, that FAT ASS AH TAN showed me attitude.. KNS!
Today's lessons end very fast la.. Went Mac with Ivan Yeo, Eileen & Kartini lo.. Hmmm.. after that, me & Eileen went to library.. We didn't go there study, we go there listen songs, then chat using handphone{type sms}.. Listening songs halfway, I felt so stressed up with something in my mind & I cried.. Personal stuffs ya.. Haix! ;(

Alrites, gonna stop here le.. Anyway, been very tired these few days.. Headache here & there..

Anyway, thanks alot DANTA for helping me find all my favourite songs & burned them into the CD-R.. -HuGg!Es-Sm!LeS-
Take care always!

SaDdY sObS cR!Es

2004-08-30T15:28:00.000+08:00

Finally get to update my blog again.. seems that it's been a long time since i use the comouter.. Yesterday went town with Melissa Darling & Zul.. Met up with other schoolmates for awhile.. Hmmm, went to LIPS CAFE at cine with Melissa & Zul.. Went to make teachers day cards.. Didn't really make la.. Somehow do a little bit of wordings lo.. Well, there got a few bungs la.. One bung working at there look really familiar lo.. Dun really care about this bah.. Hmmm.. I'm waitng for Jake's reply.. Waited for quite a while.. Then i realsed that i actually haven reply her sms.. *Stupid me*

Been messaging with her since 1pm plus till midnight like that lo.. *Laughs*

Well, went to watch 'Face' with Melissa & Zul.. The movie is really scary le pls.. There's tears in my eyes can.. After the whole scary part, I laughed a little.. 1ST TIME got tears in my eyes when I watched horror movies.. *GosH*

Hmmm.. Yeen Koon & Warren went home after their movies.. They watched 'AVP' with Jonathan & Qiu Ping.. Jonathan & Qiu Ping waited for Melissa, Zul & me.. The show ended at about 8.50pm ;)

Saw some schoolmates at Plaza.Sing lo.. Ammer so cute & handsome la pls! *Faints*
Hmmm.. Called Jovi, she was with a friend.. She told me she's at suntec & she's heading back to Hereen to take some stuffs la.. Didn't get to see her.. *Sobs* So long never see her le lei! ;(

Hmmm.. When I reached home, then bath le evrything, chatted with Eileen.. Talked about the past & laughed at it.. Kinda stupid BUT we enjoyed the whole conversation..

Woke up at about 1plus in the afternoon like that lo.. Calvin called me to asked me go breakfast with her.. What the hell.. I'm so tired la! Thanks to her, i can't get to sleep longer & complete my dream.. Think i told her, 'ask ur stead go breakfast with you la.. Why ask me?'.. *ponders*
Calvin was kinda unhappy with me la.. Cos I talked to her in a very tired & pissed off manner.. Do I do anything wrong? I doubt so la..
Eileen called me after 40 minutes when me & Calvin put down the phone.. She called me miss piggy.. *Laughs*
I'm really tired, so please spare me.. I'm not PIGGY! ;x
Suppose to go popular with Eileen to buy some construction paper & pens BUT she can't go out & I'm going to hospital to visit my grandpa..

LASTLY, so sad, didn't go hospital at all.. Tomorrow then go visit my grandpa bahs! I mss GRANDPA! ;x
Hmmm.. went to bangkit there, help mummy to buy the things she wanted.. Went to bookshop to buy pens too.. Checked how much I need to pair for repairs for my handphone.. It cost $50 to $75 dollars.. I think i gonna save money la.. Maybe I'll just take my handphone to Nokia Care Centre to repair.. Like that more safe lo..
Messaged with Jake again.. But halfway stopped messaging with her.. Dun wanna disturb her ma..

Called marissa at about 10 plus or 11 in the night.. Chatted with her for a while.. She's going back school tomorrow lei! Can see her, so happy.. Long time never see her le!
Tomorrow I going to see doctor.. I'm sick sia.. sick for quite a long time. just that lazy see doctor.. Usually, mummy will bring me to the doctor de ma.. But Daddy & mummy working.. Looks like I gonna be more independent compared to last time le la..

Alright, gonna stop here already.. Tomorrow still got school sia.. *Sleepy*

Jake, sorry about it, sorry that I called you at the wrong time when you're at your darling's place.. *arghs* feel bad about it *

!..!I MISS HER.. SHE DOESN'T KNOW I MISS HER SO BADLY!..!
-H-Z-M-

ArGhSp!SsEd*

2004-08-28T13:22:00.000+08:00

Fucking angry & moody today la.. All my computers at home can't be use at all! All spoiled sia! KnN!!!
Now at Lan shop using computer la.. So ke lian la.. Susspose to meet Calvin la.. But in the end never meet her le.. Ivan Leong sent me home today.. Kanna happy la.. *smile*
First time i fold paper crane & silver heart then gave it to him.. *Laughs*
Dunno why i do that also lo.. Well.. I wanna watch 'The face' with my sister at cine de.. But then no tickets.. Dun have that show also.. *Pissed*

Yesterday sister came back from HK, kinda chat with her for a very long time.. She bought me a watch.. She bought Thalisha a present.. Cos her birthday coming le ma & that thanks to Thalisha! *for the digital camera*

I tried using gunbound at lan shop but can't connect to server lei.. *sobs*
Tomorrow got remedial.. Dun feel like going at all..

That's all i have to say.. Take care people~

2004-08-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since i use computer sia.. Been busy with my school work la.. I'm so tired! Ran 2,4km today during P.E lesson.. *arghs*

Not feeling good these few days.. So mnay things had hapened.. Don't know how to solve it.. I don't know how to face that 'someone'.. *aRgHs*

I'm using dad's computer now sia.. *ArGhS*
My computer just so SLOW!!! Damn pissed now la.. I'm getting more & more bad-tempered & hot-tempered le.. Kinda siao liao le.. *laughs*

Sister coming back from Hong Kong soon le bah.. Hahaha! Happy.. Cos at night I can't really sleep without her.. With sister around then I can disturb her.. *grins*
No la.. Can have someone to chat with & share my problems with ma.. Overall, we share lotsa things de ;)

*MISS YOU SIS!*

F!NaL|y CaN uPdA+E mY bLoGgY ;)

2004-08-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

15.08.2004
Went to Esplanade on 15th August.. Before went to esplanade, was at town with my sister.. Hahaha! Well, took some neoprints.. Went esplanade, then went to a Japanese Restaurant.. Sat there for quite some time then chatted with one another.. One of the staffs of that Restaurant broke some plates.. Nearly kanna me sia.. Luckily never sia! If not I sure bad mood de.. Well, I was kinda hot & bad-tempered la.. Scolded some people lo.. Cos they're so inconsiderate & so uncivilise sia.. Block the view of the fireworks.. Sister was pissed off too.. Cos of a Fu*kInG indian girl.. *arghs* Don't let me see that indian girl again.. If not I'll just screw her up! Didn't really enjoy the day but however, it's the best feeling that i ever had with my sister.. Feelings as in sisters' love & feelings.. Spend our money on foods sia.. & neoprints.. We were so vain! *GosH* Girls not vain then not girls le sia.. Hahaha! *Don't know what I talking also*

16.08.2004
16 august, was founder's day sia.. After school went to causeway point with my classmates.. Somehow, spent all my money within one day sia.. Somemore, asked Melissa to lend me $5.. *winks*
Will return her once I got money ;)
*hope my sister likes what I bought for her birthday*
Went to meet my sister & Arzeen at Bukit Panjang Plaza Mac.. Go separate ways with my classmates then.. Went to Mos burger with sister & Azreen lo.. Azreen hungry ma, then accompanied her to have her lunch taken.. After that, went to hospital to visit my grandpa.. Azreen went to driving centre to take her bike test..
*prays she can make it*
Reached hospital at about 5.55pm like that, then chatted with my grandpa sia.. He's more more better.. I hope he is able to stand up again & walk again.. However, my sister & I were encouraging him & to have confidence in himself that he can get well soon.. My that step-grandma ar.. Don't know what's wrong with her sia! She keep on being sacarstic sia! Keep on saying that my grandpa won't get well.. Being his wife, she keep on discourage him sia.. I HATE HER! HATE HER TO CORE!!! SHE SUCKS!
Heys, grandpa told me he dreamt that he is able to run.. Yeahs, I hope his dream comes true lo.. I touched his head,, his hair is so soft! Like baby hair, even though he's bald.. I told him that I'll take him to Chinatown to eat next time sia.. *Ah gong, please get well soon* We go ma-kan next time* okays?*
I lost my great-grandma last year.. If ever the day someone dearest to me leave me again, I'll be very sad.. I don't wanna that yucky feeling again.. May god in heaven, bless all my dearest friends & family.. Watch them grow, live happily & take them out of hatred & sadiness..

17.08.2004
Hmmm.. These few days been so busy sia.. Hahaha.. Today late for school again.. *DaMn*
Alrites, well, quarreled with 3 teachers today.. Not really quarrel but somehow talk back until very buay song sia.. Fu*K sia! I kanna 6 hours detention from my mother tongue sia.. Don't know why sia.. Never mind la.. Well, these few days very tired.. Lack of sleep sia.. Yesterday messaged with Jovi, so does today.. *Laughs*
Well, she always sleeps late & wakes up early.. Called her today.. Luckily call her in time to wake her up.. Hahaha! She's very pig sia.. I called her then she still can sleep for another 10 minutes.. *Faints*
After school went out with some of my classmates lo.. Hmmmm, there's one malay bung working at Mac lo.. See her, then I think of Diana le sia.. Long time never see Diana, don't know how she's been doing.. Hope she's fine out there somewhere aound in Singapore ba.. *Prays hard*

Today I got this Ah Lian attitude.. Cos just damn pissed off by a bastard sia.. He said that my darling Melissa seduce Clifford.. *What the hell* He anyhow said that of my Melissa.. *Sayang Melissa* Ham-tan that CPY!!! *Gr!nS*
~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~BaNaNnA s!StErS & bEaRs BeArS~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~

Brother's birthday coming soon le.. His birthday on 20th aug sia.. Sister will be going to Hong Kong soon.. Hahaha! Gonna miss her like hell! *cries*
Heys! But I can have the room for myself! Huarry! ;X

sTuP!D dAy.. ArGhS

2004-08-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

What a day sia! I woke up late, late for school.. That fucking MARCEL LEE! Made me felt so pissed! He's behaving like my dad! I don't like the way they talked to me.. It simply SUCKS SO MUCH! MARCEL LEE said, "berline, I thought you're always good in quarreling? I don't expect girls to be late for school."
*BLOODY BASTARD*HE JUST SPOILED MY DAY*

Well, some of my friends were late for school as well.. Went back class then it's chemistry lesson.. Got so tired la, today accounts lesson, keep on talking non-stop with Melissa.. Think I'm talkative today lo..
Well, time flies la, then coming end of the day of school le.. However, was told to stay back cos got remedial.. *arghs*
Those who were told to stay back, waited for Mrs Norman till 2.30pm sia.. While waiting, somehow played a game.. *laughs*
I scolded a guy today.. That guy very inconsiderate sia.. Other people having their 'O' level oral, yet he played basketball in class.. *dumb ass*

On way home, my classmates saw Mrs Norman, she said that she had instructed a guy to inform us that the remedial is cancel le sia.. *IDIOTIC GUY, THAT WEI LIANG*
Never informed us at all! He's gonna get it from me on monday liao le!

Went home with 2 classmates.. Hmmm, Jonathan Tan called me, had a chat.. Some kind of stupid chats.. *LaUgHs*

Sorry guys fellow schoolmates & friends, I really gonna said this.. You guys may think that it's disgusting that girls & girls go into relationships.. It's NOT! It's the feelings, the strong bond of love we have in one another.. What you guys think is that 3-letter word.. Being frank, it's common for you guys to think that way, but have you guys ever think how a girl will feel? NO! YOU GUYS NEVER!

*Arghs* Quarreled with my brother.. However, I took my afternoon nap at about 5pm like that lo.. Slept till 7.40pm sia.. *Still tired*yAwNs*

I think I'll be going sun tanning once my skin peel off nicely.. *laughs*
I wanna get more tanned! I wanna go sky diving sia! It seems fun, exciting & cool.. Scuba diving is pretty fun too.. So I can explore the ocean! *can't wait to save lotsa money, then go learn scuba & sky diving sia! I just love the feeling of be high up into the sky & deep down into the ocean! *woahs*

My Sk!N pEeL!Ng!!! ArGhS

2004-08-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

Oh man! My skin is peeling like hell can?!!! First is my face, but now getting better le sia.. Just came out of the bathroom then my back & front skin started to peel sia.. *DaRN*

Hmmmm.. Manage to finish my art work sia.. Anyways, today is a very tiring day sia.. *Dying soon*
My eyes are closing le sia.. Later gonna revise my English & Chemistry sia.. Gonna study hard.. Must try my best le.. Tomorrow having mathematics remedial lei! *boring day* Suppose to go out de.. Guess that I gonna disappoint somebody out there.. *Laughs*

PLEASE GOD! I wanna go tanning agin.. Quick let my skin heal faster then I can go tanning again.. Oh yas! Told Miss Lim to go sun tanning during Sept holidays lo.. *grins*
She a very nice teacher.. Ah har! She sweet looking too! *grinx*

Well, guess my handphone is going to be confiscated by my mother sia.. Bill sure brust de la.. Haix! No handphone to use until Oct lei.. Mum must be confiscating it for about 2 to 3 months time lo.. Maybe is a good thing, cos she won't be able to find where am I.. -Lauhgs-
it's a bad thing as well, cos I will lost contact with all my friends bahx.. Somemore, I didn't really memorise all my friends contact number.. However, the worst thing is that, I'm so scare I'll lost contact wth her.. She mean so much to me.. *she's not here*sobs*

Oh ya oh ya, today took history source base test lo.. It's quite difficult.. Pray that I'll pass lo.. Took back my chinese paper, got a shock outta my life! I got the lowest in class I think.. I got 16/50 sia.. *Sighs*
What a failure am I! All I know is to enjoy & try to study hard, in the end get this kinda fucking results..

Sister told me she saw Danta sia! Sister said that she's cute, the way that she said 'Hi'.. -Laughs-
Oh man! Too bad I can't get to see her cos in different school ma.. Perhaps see her around soon.. *prays*

Woke up late today morning.. Luckily, Qui Ping called me in the morning, or else I think I gonna be late for school again sia.. Forgot to bring my wallet to school.. Straving like hell, however, my friends lend me money first lo.. Next time gonna treat them sia.. *wait i save money 1st, okay?* ;)

Yesterday I had a dream, I dream of her & me.. Dreamt that she's in my room.. blah blah blah.. Shall not tell you guys what's the dream about.. Only Eileen, Melissa & Qiu Ping know about it.. *bLeAhX*

Lincoln called me.. Somehow was in a very bad mood cos my brother simply just pissed me off sia.. *hate him*
Aiyo! Can anyone tell me, why most of the guys are so irritatting & childish sia.. *slap those irritating & childish ass*

For that someone(you know who you are): Stop smsing me.. Your smses are stupid, boring! Stop being like my stead.. STOP STOP STOP! STOP asking what I'm doing, where am I, taken my meal & if i had sleep already.. BETTER STOP IT! I'm getting irritated by everything you do! GET A LIFE LA!!! Stop pretending that you care for me.. You just make me wanna puke! I HATE short smses.. Don't ever sms me short smses.. I won't reply at all..

JuS+ To KeEp UpDaT!Ng My B|oGgY.. ;)

2004-08-12T12:28:00.000+08:00

Woah, it's been a few days since i write in my blog le ar.. lols! Hmmm.. Well, now using my dearest sister's laptop ;)

Went to esplanade on national day.. Pass my ex some stuffs ya.. Things didn't turn out good at all.. Got some quarrels la.. Jovi was there with her friends too.. Hmmm.. But never meet up with her lo.. My battery flat ma.. -GrInX-

Chatted with Jovi on the phone for quite some time on monday or tuesday night bahx.. Darn! I'm getting old liao le sia.. think I keep on forgetting things neh..

Yesterday recieved a message from Ian darling.. GosH! I thought she had forgotten about my birthday sia.. Well, howeve, somehow I felt shock but mostly, i felt disappointed & sad.. Cos I hope that she will be the first one to wish me happy birthday.. HaIs.. She/s the last one to wish my happy birthday.. Never mind la, i'll understand cos she had explain things to me le.. *hUgG!Es*MuAcKs*

Today school reopen le, haha, met with Qiu Ping, then she made breakfast for me.. WoaH! It's nice, gonna ask her to teach me how to make that burger.. -Laughs-
Somehow, today was a yucky day lo.. gonna see people's face.. As if i offend them sia.. *PuKe*

Went to collect car license with my sister.. Then went bukit panjang plaza to buy some drinks lo.. Hmmm.. don't know why, while typing in this blog, I suddenly miss her so much..

-Everday seems to be nice-I'm cheerful & happy-deep down in me, I'm not-

.:.:.:.:.:.:.:Missing you badly! How i wish you're here with me! SIGHS!:.:.:.:.:.:.:.

+HeSe FeW dAyS sO +IReD yE+ FuN

2004-08-09T02:53:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, 6th august went to Singapore Discovery Centre on my birthday.. Celebrate National Day lo.. Prem went there too.. Hahaha! Thought he going Malaysia sia.. Lucky he went there, if not Eileen sure no mood sia.. Finally found a friend whose birthday is on the same date as me.. ~Lolx~ *Lame lame lame*

On 7th August is Elson's birthday! *Happy birthday to you* ;)
Went to Sentosa with my classmates & a school mate.. They're Jonathan Tan, Qiu Ping, Eileen, Louis Lim, Melissa, Sheng Min & Damian.. Went tanning with them.. -Laughs-
Reached Sentosa at about 9.30am then tanned until 5.45pm like that lo.. Went to toilet then saw sister's friend at there.. Lolx! She's really hot babe sia! ;)
Kinda surprise to see her there.. She's Gabrielle from TP, in a Design Course.. Her friends were with her too.. At first Gabrielle thought I went sentosa with sister.. Sad to said that I went there with my friends.. -Laughs-
Hmmm.. Got a big present from Sheng Min.. Damn big.. 3rd biggest present that I recieved for my birthday.. *thanks BROTHER*
-Ponders what's inside sia-laughs-
Reached home at about 8 plus in the evening.. *so tired*feel so hot & TANNED*
The feeling is great.. Didn't have much sleep sia.. My my my! I'm so happy cos I finally get much more tanned & dark compared to last time..

Got a call from Jerome Eng in the morning.. Slept for a while after his call then Keith 'lao gong' called me.. She's SICK?! Haix! She's been sick for don't know how many days le lo.. *pray for her & jane jane to get better*both my darlings are SICK*
~Sobs~ ;(
Later going watch Fireworks with my primary schoolmates.. Think they see me sure shock sia.. I'm like so red & tanned now.. Somemore, I'm so fat lei.. Compared to sec 1 that time la.. Haix! I must really go on diet sia.. If not really nobody wanna me then how sia.. *cries*

Alrites, gonna stop here le.. Going to sleep.. No no no, gonna call Keith 1st then sleep.. Never answer her call just now when I'm talking to Jonathan.. *grins*

SuCkY & yUcKy DaYs..

2004-08-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

These 2 days been so unlucky la.. Haix! Monday & Tuesday Kanna from Jerome Tan.. Attire & what else?! Today morning met Qui Ping at bus stop to go school together.. Met with Zuer*piglet* also.. Passed her the letter then went into school le.. *Gr!Nz* Hoping that we can find one day to go out together to have lunch or spend some time together.. I need a listening ear from someone more experience than me.. Need her advices so much!
Today morning nearly kanna send home by him to take a stupid fucking story book sia.. *damn*
Think he very big sia.. Only in the DT ma.. Discipline Team only NOT Discipline Master at all.. Hmmm.. Get real PISSED OFF by some fucking guys up there! Their words, actions & many other things more..
Well, yesterday morning saw Wen Hao when I'm on my way to meet Melissa*darling* for breakfast.. Was late for school.. Lols! Messaged with Beth, Ivan Leong*blur boy* & Melissa.. Hmmm, went to eat Big Breakfast lo.. On way to school, saw my sister on the bus! Lolx!
After school went home, then met up with daddy & sister for a while to buy dinner.. Saw Benedict & Jerome Wong when I'm on my way home after buying dinner.. *SiGhS*wHaT a DaY!!!*

Alrites, gonna go le.. Wanna catch my show on Channel 8.. *cHaOs*

AuGuS+.. YeAhS! ;)

2004-08-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

Huarry! It's august liao le! Been looking forward this month cos it's my month lei! *bLeAhS*
Gonna celebrate my birthday with friends & family.. Hopefully with that someone in my mind now.. *i know i'm dreaming*
Hais! She's busy la, busy with her work, busy with her life.. ;(
IF she will be able to wish me a 'happy birthday', I'll be grateful already.. I won't expect much.. Just hope & pray hard that she remembers my birthday lo.. ;P

Hmmm, Friday went lunch with Wan Ting.. The day is not good at all.. Fat ass caught me for attire.. *damn!*
Fat Ass JEROME TAN said that I'll need to serve 3 hours detention for everytime he catch me for attire.. *arghs*I kick his ass then he know pain sia* ;x
Recieved Jerome Wong's sms that day.. Was kinda not a good sms from him to me.. Went home, bath liao then I went hospital with sister & Arzeen.. Went to visit my grandpa lo.. He's much more better la le.. *pray hard that he is getting better as days pass by*

Went to Eve's birthday party at a country club.. We ani't really happy & satisfied with some things lo.. Don't wish to say & bring this subject up anymore..
Hmmm, met up with Melissa & Rachel & Rachel's friends for a while.. Didn't really talk to Rachel cos she's with her friends & I don't even know her friends at all.. Hmmm, I remembered something.. The uncle that asked Melissa question.. *faints*
Melissa, if you reading my blog, don't laugh ar.. Remember the way the uncle talked to you & the way how his hair look like? *laughs*

Hmmm, yesterday went out with Eileen lo.. Then went to meet others too.. Those Japanese people very cute! ;x
My that blur blur friend, Ivan Leong ar, hais! He never go home.. He went to Lionel's house.. *naughty boy boy sia*laughs*

Hmmm, now sunday la, nothing much.. Was at home the whole day lo.. Felt so cold sia.. It's been raining so heavily.. *gosh* my head hurts now..
Gonna stop here le la..

SaD sAd.. Ha!X ;(

2004-07-29T08:52:00.000+08:00

I'm so sad.. My grandpa is in hospital.. Hope that he is fine.. He lost his left vision sia.. His brain is bleeding.. ;(
The 1st time I went hospital with my sister to visit my grandpa.. On 26th July.. That day just knew that it was his birthday & he gonna spent it in hospital.. ;(

I ain't feeling good.. Gave people major attitude & somehow get back to that yucky 'ah lian'.. Bad & hurting words came out from my mouth.. *arghs*
Sorry peeps, for showing attitude & scolding & shouting at you guys.. *feel bad*

Well, it had been raining these few days.. Felt so cold.. My back hurts so much & my legs seems so weak.. I feel so tired everyday.. Everyday when I wake up, my head hurts too.. Especially the left side of my brain.. It really hurts.. *DaMn*

Tried logging into msn using my fucking computer.. It was sucessful in the 1st place.. Then my computer hang sia.. I restarted my computer & tried to log in again.. That yucky, sucky & fucking problem appeared again.. What troubleshoot kinda shit stuffs.. Just venting my anger in this blog la.. Saying everything I wanna.. Cos no one will understands how I feel right now..
*I'm sad, angry, pissed off, disappointed, confused & blah blah blah feelings...*

Haix! Suppose to visit my grandpa today but however it's raining & brother just came home sia.. Perhaps, I'll visit him of Friday lo.. Hopefully, on my birhtday, he will be better le..
*prayers for my grandpa*

+!R!Ng DaY

2004-07-26T02:59:00.000+08:00

These few days very busy sia.. hais! Hmmm.. Been so busy with carnival stuffs & work sia.. Grandpa got into hospital sia.. Hais! *abit sad*
Supposed to meet up with Ian & Danta yesterday at the carnival but they can't make it.. -Laughs out loud-

Well, ain't feeling good at all cos I'm sick lo.. Keep on sneezing & sneezing sia.. Hais! ;(

Stupid msn thingy, that time I can log in using my computer but then when I sign out then log in again, it failed sia.. Somemore I'm really dying to go into msn cos there's alot of my friends in msn & they don't have my contact number at all.. ;(
*cries*

Somemore there's new friends lo.. How I wish I can see them online next time.. (hope by that time they still remember me & my msn is working sia)
Hais! *sad sad sia*

Later might be going to hospital to visit my grandpa with my sister lo.. *hais*

20/7/2004(7 months plus knowing HER)

2004-07-21T11:17:00.000+08:00

It's been 7 months le.. Time really flies so fast.. I known her for 7 months le BUT only meet up a few times before.. Not even more than 5 times I guessed.. Not really feeling good these few days at all, or should I said, I've been changing so much, from bad to worst I guess.. ;(

Well, really PISSED off by the MSN thingy.. I GIVE UP! Not goona try to reinstall everything again.. Pointless! I tried more than 30 times but still failed sia.. Haix! ;(
Went for counselling today.. Spent 3 periods, which is 105 minutes.. I thought my counsellor will be Isabelle or Sernea but it's not them, it's Evelyn lo.. A counsellor I never see or talk to before.. Hahahas!
Been chatting with a bung these 2 days la.. Quite nice lo.. Her voice abit like Keiths voice, her characters abit like Gekko de..
Somehow don't know why think of Gekko yesterday after putting down the phone with Ravric..

On monday kinda pissed off with that Miss Sim & Mrs Chen sia.. So many things happened.. I CURSED & SWEAR that they got no good end sia.. Idiotic piece of shit! *arghs*pissed*

Well, today stayed back school unitl 4.15pm like that then left school.. Got Chemistry remedial & got Chemistry test.. Can't do the test paper at all.. Don't know what's wrong with me again.. I have yet to take my Physics test today, as like I've mentioned, I went for counselling, thus miss my Physics lesson for the test.. *sucks*
Body is aching now.. Messaged with Jovi just now & chatted with Keith & Marissa over the phone too.. Having conference call.. They seem happy & I don't really understand what they're talking about.. Hais! Think Melissa should know what's wrong with me.. I think nobody gonna understand me more than Melissa bahx.. Told her that I've been rude & bad-tempered these few days/weeks.. Hais! Perhaps something that's keeping in my mind & heart sia.. ;(

After school went home, Zuer messaged me, kinda shocked to see her message but somehow she saw me on the way to take bus with Eileen sia.. Hahahas! ;)
Hmmm, maybe gonna meet up with her someday.. She still owed me her photo & a reply letter sia.. ;x
*let's go on diet bahs! You do it in a healty way, while I'll do it in a unhealthy way, okays*laughs*

YeS+ErDaY eVeN!Ng & ToDaY.. p!SsEd

2004-07-19T08:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday should be going to church with friends BUT something happened to my relative.. Don't wish to talk about it le.. I'm so sad & pissed right now lo.. Sad of what happened.. Pissed cos of msn.. There's troubles signing in sia.. Especially these few days.. Only can sign in using my daddy's computer lo.. *FUCK SIA*
Somehow yesterday met up with Shion & Eve.. Things don't really turn out to be good.. Sister pissed off also.. On way home saw Clayton, Yu Min, Denise, Gerald, Hazel & Hazel's stead lo.. Was kinda shocked to see them yesterday sia.. Yesterday I wore until so auntie sia, then they saw me.. So pai seh! Hehehe! ;P
>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:End of saturday>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:

Chatted with Keith & Marissa Jane on the phone, at the same time, messaged with Danta lo.. Keith got some problems, hmmm, 1st time I 'scolded' Keith on phone, not really scold her la.. But somehow my words seem so harsh hurtful lo.. Sorry about it.. But I just wanna you to stand up & move on with life.. Face REALITY!
I told you before, I'll slowly help you build trust in people.. Hopefully, I can la.. But I'll try my best.. I wanna you to be happy & NEVER regret in life or any decisions you made..
Keith called, then I was like a piggy, didn't answer her 1st call.. Opps*
2nd call came in, I answered it.. Chatted with her for a while la.. Then slept again, don't know until what time lo.. Hais! Hmmm, Marissa's spectacles still with me sia.. Think I'll pass it to her later or Monday la..
*FUCKING PISSED OFF BY THE MSN THINGY*

*alrights, stop here liao le la..*

YeS+ErDaY & +OdAy

2004-07-17T04:22:00.000+08:00

Friday, I woke up at about 7am, gonna late for school liao le la.. Damn, luckily it started raining at about 7.20am like that, no morning assemably sia.. Hahaha! Was not drench cos the rain only lasted for a while.. Skipped Chemistry & POA lesson.. Was in toilet with some friends lo.. Hahaha! Hmmmm.. Mrs Soh didn't come to school wor.. Me & Eileen were in the toilet styling our hair.. Blah blah blah.. Recess saw Jerome Tan that idiotic fatty boom boom.. Stared at me & I stared back.. Went to AVT to look for Isabelle cos gonna tell her I wanna change the counselling session to next tuesday & I'll be attending with Melisssa lo.. Hahaha!
Don't know what's wrong with me sia, got this feeling will see that fatty boom boom Jerome Tan.. Yesterday sixth sense will accurate sia.. Sometimes he's nice la, sometimes he's not lo.. *Gr!Nz*
However, quarreled with Mrs Chen.. Having some conflicts with her la.. That bananna face! *pUkE*
Fuck sia she.. That time said that the chemistry extra lesson, for those who wanna go then go, don't wanna go, it's at our own loss.. I didn't turn up lo.. Cos went studying with friends ma.. Then that fucking monkey made us stayed back for detention.. Damn pissed sia.. Hais! Then somehow Chin How & Ah Chou as well as me said something bad about her la.. She's a idiot! Monday gonna serve another detention.. Don't really feel like serving sia.. I don't think I;ve done anything wrong what.. *pissed*
Reached home around 3pm like that lo.. Hehehe! Then I don't know what I've done, time passed so fast sia.. At night I sent mms to Danta, Nigel & Jovi.. Nothing better to do.. Then Nigel & me messaged lo.. she told me she went to pierce her tongue sia., *oUcH* I feel the pain.. She said it's not really painful sia.. *ponders*
Again, she went out with her ex-girlfriend sia.. Going monks with her ex-stead.. Jovi will be there too I think cos she told me before that she's going monks on friday cos her friend asked her to go ma..
Went downstairs to meet sister's stead.. Passed her chocolates & sweets.. Shion & a mixed race girl were there too.. The girl really chio! Especially her eyes, so sparkling & shiny sia!

:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:end for Friday:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:>:

Later gonna go City Harvest Church with 2 friends lo.. Woke up at 11am today.. Slept for 12 hours cos yesterday at about 11pm sleep ma.. Can't find my 'bao bao' in my bedroom.. Then went to sleep at mama's bedroom lo.. Slept beside my little cute fat yet naughty brother.. Can't find my 'bao bao' again.. Never mind, hugged my brother to sleep.. He's so 'meaty' that's why nice to hug.. *laughs*
Prepared lunch for my brother & myself.. Parents went out for work while sister went back to school to do her project lo.. Marissa & me messaged today morning sia.. Hehehe! Poor girl, must go school early sia.. Aiyoyo! Dark dark school with nobody & she's alone at the bus-stop or what ba.. *scary*
Gonna stop here le la.. Going take a nap now.. *winks*
Might be editing this post tonight if I get back form Church lo..

+UeSdAy, WeDnEsDaY & +OdAy..

2004-07-16T11:28:00.000+08:00

Tuesday I skipped chemistry extra lesson then went study with Marissa Jane.. Met up with Keith & she taught Marissa Jane science lo.. Keith MADE us wait for her damn long..
Reached home quite late.. Met up with mummy, picked her up from work.. Hmmm, then went home together.. Reached home about 10.30pm lo.. Well, 1st time been out after school for so long sia..

:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.End for tuesday:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:

Wednesday no bowling but I lied to mummy.. hahahas! *felt guilty sia*
Hnmmm, again, went study with Marissa Jane lo.. Kinda fun yesterday la.. Cried when listening to a song at mac.. Didn't really cry much but tears just dropped down.. *sobs*
Perhaps, think about her again le bahx.. *trying hard not to*

:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.End for wednesday:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:.:

Using dad's computer now, updating my blog.. It seems a long time since I use computer ar.. lols!
Well, was almost late for school today lo.. Luckily no morning assemably sia.. Cos it's gonna rain le ma.. Hmmm, don't why I felt so tired & reckless today.. It seems to be a long day.. Lesson ended at 4pm sia.. BORED!
Took Sheng Min's camera phone to take some snaps in the toilet.. It sounds crazy BUT then I just like taking photos & yups! Today, I pinned up my hair, so I look kinda little girl & I look cute! *some of my friends said that only la*
Anyways, didn't really get to see some of my friends as they're having their mission week lo.. Sad sad! *sobs*
I'm going for another session of counselling next week with Melissa.. Counselling really good.. At least I can get things outta my heart, burst out in tears on Wednesday during counselling.. Don't ask why.. Not only me burst in tears, 2 of my friends also lo.. Hais!
*why people getting hurt so badly?*

I'm so confused now, confused by so many people & things.. Don't know what to do & handle also sia..

alrites.. stop here le..
Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAWN ;)

*always here for all of you! HUGGIES & MUACKS to all my friends*

A |OnG yE+ N!Ce DaY..

2004-07-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn early today for school sia.. Luckily Wei Chin messaged me & woke me up.. We met under my block at 7.05am.. We went to school together.. He picked me up for school.. Hahahas! Hmmm, which guy will ever do that to me if he's only my friend, I bet, only Wei Chin will do that la, cos he's a really good friend lo.. Reached school at about 7.15am.. It's so early, hardly see my classmates at the assemably area sia..
Today had mission week programme lo, it's kinda fun la! -LaUgHs OuT lOuD-
No lessons today, ah ha! Tomorrow also no lessons cos got mission week programme lo.. This mission week thingy is only for some catholic schools.. Well, had our recess break for about 50 minutes sia.. Hehehe, cos today special case ma, the people from the mission week in charge gave us 50 minutes break lo..
After the mission week programme, 6 of us(Thalisha, Aurfar, Amanda, De Wei, Ivan & Me) stayed back awhile for a short briefing.. After the briefing, went to the school hall.. It's a talk about "Sextually Terminated Diseases" & how we can actually prevent all these "unexpected" diseases on happening on us..
The talk ended at 2.05pm.. Went to canteen alone, it's raining heavily sia.. Real heavy lo.. Oh ya, this Saturday might be going to City Harvest Church with my friends.. Just attending & see how's the church is like.. Don't get the wrong idea ar, I'm a non-religious wor.. ;)

Sat down at the canteen with Marissa Jane & Yee Kit, waited for the rain to get lighter lo.. Sent Marissa Jane home, went through her mathematics with her as well.. Trying hard to slove those problem sums.. Hope she understands what I'm writing & how to get the answers as well as those workings.. ;P
Chatted with her god-mother other the phone for a while too.. Hehehe! Well, Marissa Jane chatted with Keith over the phone, they're talking about mathematics stuffs la.. Keith taught her how to slove the problems through phone.. Damn SUPER! Hahahas!
Went home at about 7pm like that lo.. Before that I went to 7-eleven, bought 2 packets of M&Ms & 2 bars of Kikat chocolates! ~YuMmY yUmMy~ *HmMmM*

Took cab home & I watched channel 8 lo.. The 7pm show, it's nice ;)
Well, just trying to update my blog to keep some of my friends update about how's life going on for me.. ;)
I didn't really have the time to call & tell them what happen to me but, ya, they can read my blog ya.. yeps!

Gonna stop here already.. Gonna bath & take my dinner.. Didn't really feel like eating la, cos I'm so full when I finished eating my chocolates.. *Gr!Ns*

Sa+UrDaY & sUnDaY.. SUCKY, YUCKY, SICKENING & FUCKING DAY..

2004-07-12T14:39:00.000+08:00

Kanna woke up by me brother in the morning to help him with his username for logging in into the computer.. Helped him to fix the stuffs BUT he's impatient lo.. Asked me to get lost & he will fix the problems himself.. What the hell.. Daddy satrt all those FUCKING IRRITATING naggings at me, scolding me with those awful & hurting words..
That's the point, I help or didn't help my brother to fix the stupid computer thingy, I'll kanna scoldings & naggings..

Never mind, I fixed that fucking idiotic computer thingy for my brother liao le.. Took my lunch after that, then went to sleep at mum's room with my mum on the bed.. Slept till 8pm-8.30pm like that lo.. Around there la.. Hmmm, went to look for mother after that, she's working, thus, picked her up & also went to eat Mac with sister lo.. Cos mum never cook at all ma..

Reached home at about 10.30pm like that lo.. Sister & brother using computer again.. Doing what?! Playing gunbound.. They stopped playing at about 12 midnight like that.. I used computer at about 12.45am or 1am like that.. While using halfway, dad came out of the bedroom & started his naggings at me AGAIN! Keep on asking me to switch off computer & saying that I've been using computer the whole day..
I talked back, cos he insulted my friends! He even said that I've been mixing with those 'ah bengs & ah lians'.. FUCK HIM REAL HARD, OKAY! I've STOP mixing with this kind of people liao le lo! DADDY'S A SUCKER, BASTARD, SO BIAS!!! I mean, hey come on lo, I not use the computer yesterday for at least 30 minutes lo, yet he could just keep on NAGGING NAGGING & NAGGING.. HE'S BIAS, OKAY?!!!
My brother could used computer & surf the internet for about 6 hours per day lo.. or at least 4 hours per day playing gunbound.. DADDY IS COCK-EYED izzit?! He got 2 eyes to see lo.. He's always siding his PRECIOUS son la! BEING A GUY BIG FUCK IZZIT?! CAN GET ALL THEY WANNA IZZIT?!

I shut down the computer as told, switched off the lights as well.. DAMN! It's so dark & I can't see clearly.. I accidently trippled over my brother's playstation lo.. DADDY SAID I DID THAT ON PURPOSE! FUCK HIM CAN?!!! He SCOLDED me AGAIN! WORST, he BEATED me REAL HARD on my back.. It's not painful, seriously, it's not painful.. I kanna all these beatings & scoldings since I'm a small kid till now.. Guess what?! Yet I CRIED! I CRIED cos he never even listen to my explaination at all & he just simply SUCKS, he never asked what I wanna, how I feel & how I'm going through.. HE'S SELFISH! He just THINKS that he's ALWAYS RIGHT ALL THE TIME.. We quarreled & mum came out of her bedroom lo..
I went back to my room, locked the door.. Dad was still outside SHOUTING & NAGGING AGAIN & AGAIN LIKE A MADMAN!
I really CANNOT STAND all these FUCKING scoldings, beatings & naggings at all!
I shouted out loudly, "I HATE YOU, I HATE GUYS, DON'T EVER BLAME ME BECOMING A LES BECAUSE PARTLY, HE IS THE MAIN CAUSE OF THIS"..
I don't give a FUCK if I hurt him or what by saying all those sentences out lo! I MEANT it! People, you all think la, a guy, whom is your dad, can actually treat you unfairly, no much different as a slave, beating, scolding & nagging you NON-STOP.. Being BAIS cos you're a girl.. Hey, he's your dad, a guy that can actually make you lost faith & trust in other guys lo.. A dad you look upon to be a good father, turned out to be a 'MONSTER'.. A guy closest to you in your family, treat you like as if you're his SLAVE?! Hahahas! This is so funny.. Whose dad will be worst than my dad?! I think no one bahx..

Went church this morning with Eunice & Eileen.. Don't wanna stay at home & see that 'MONSTER', if not war is going to happen again.. Gave Jovin morning call as well.. Her voice was quite SEXY when she just woke up not long.. OPPS ;x
After going to church, went to St Margaret's School's Canteen to take breakfast lo.. After that went town then changed bus to Esplanade with Eileen.. Simply just slack there.. Think of running away from home BUT I think it's not worth it & I got no cash with me at all.. It's STUPID to think of that way COS however I'll still need to be home when the police find me la..
Took dinner at those stalls near Specialist Centre, with Eileen, Shion & my sister lo.. After that met up with Eve & Christine la.. Hehehe.. Happy to see Christine again, cos long time never see her liao le ma.. Was wearing a fake mask throughout the whole day.. Was still ANGRY & PISSED OFF with that 'MONSTER' Dad of mine.. Just acting to be happy, wearing fake smiles, trying hard to be cheerful..

*"MONSTER" Dad of mine did call me & there the NAGGINGS & SHOUTINGS start again!!! I just cancel his call not wanting to say anything much & listen to him any further..(during dinner)*

Back home at about 9pm like that.. Conflicts & Quarrels occured again.. I just simply HATE him so much! HOW ON EARTH DID I GET SUCH A FUCKING DAD?! Oh ya, guess what, he even said that chirstians & churchs are so stupid.. HE's a buddhists ma, of cos he said that la.. I'm NOT, I'm a FREE-THINKER! I got the right to choose which religious I wanna belong to.. HE CAN JUST SIMPLY FUCK OFF LA!

Gonna stop here liao le.. The war gonna start again.. BUT it's different now, it's my mum's & my turn.. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON.. I REALLY HOPE EITHER THEY DIE OR I DIE..

+HeSe PaS+ fEw DaYs..

2004-07-10T18:12:00.000+08:00

Cecilia quitted school on Wednesday.. I'm so freak out.. Haix! I know the reason why she quitted school & went back to KL.. I ain't gonna say it out.. When she told me over the phone what happened & why she quitted school, I'm so angry & sad at the same time.. Angry cos of what happened to her & sad cos she's gonna left school & went bacj to KL le.. I don't know why, all of the sudden, got tears in my eyes.. My heart felt the pain, the pain of a friend leaving me.. Leaving Singapore & heading back to KL.. We used to quarrel & hate one another alot.. We cleared all the misunderstandings between & became friends.. A pain in my heart will stay there.. I'm waiting for the day, the day that we will meet up again.. Remember we already agreed to go K.Box on next Saturday? It's ain't gonna happen.. I'm looking forward for your return.. We shall go K.Box(a promise), shopping & taking neoprints.. Not just two of us, but with Siew Kim & others too..

Thursday didn't get to see Cecilia.. Abit not used to it.. Having MT lessons.. Teacher asked where's Cecilia.. Told teacher that she quitted school.. Teacher was shocked too & asked if I know the reason.. I didn't tell teacher the reason.. Just tell teacher that it might be some problems between Cecilia's family..

*Some conflicts going around in school as well.. Damn PISSED by these kind of matter sia*Luckily settle on Friday(9/7/04)*

Friday, a sucky day! Once again, was late for school.. Hahahas! Guess what!?.. I had been late for school since the day school reopened after Youth Day sia.. DM told us that by next week Monday, detentions will be carry out.. Means that every latecomers need to serve 3 hours of detention.. *FAINT*
How am I gonna survive sia.. 3 hours sia! I'm getting tired & weak as days pass by sia.. HaiX! ;(
Went back to class for lesson with Melissa.. Walked Marissa Jane back to her class first before heading to my class.. Hmmm, some conflicts occured after a short while lo.. Today jusst got so many conflicts & quarrels going around la..

After school, walked to canteen.. Halfway through, principle caught me & Melissa's socks.. Cos cutting of the socks are low.. So ma-lu sia.. Haix! But never mind la, cos get used to getting all these 'SHIT' le la..
We pulled up our socks as told.. Took lunch in the school.. After that I went to Marissa Jane's house.. Hehehe.. Leave her house at about 2.50pm.. She's meeting her god-mummy at Lot 1 for a show lo.. Hahaha, then I tok LRT home sia..

Reaced home le, then I ate chicken rice.. Mummy prepared chicken rice & chicken soup sia.. Eating chicken continuously these few days lo.. Chatted with Keith for a whilr then she's going to PS to meet Tang Wei le.. Time flies, evening time, went cycling with Eileen while brother went out with his friends.. Dad & Mum were at work & sister was at ehr stead's house lo..
Cycle halfway, my tyre burst.. Get it repaired liao le.. Hehehe, now I can cycle even more le lo..

Was bathing halfway after I reached home.. Got a call from me.. My brother passed me the phone while I'm bathing.. Hahaha.. It sounds stupid holding a phone cahtting with someone while bathing bahx?
Mwt up with Keith & Tang Wei at Bukit Panjang Plaza.. Met up with Eileen first cos need return her mother $10 for repairing my bicycle tyre ma.. Went to buy some stationerys as well.. Accompained Keith & Tang Wei to KFC.. Blah blah blah.. Stiory continues(not much interesting parts la)
Oh ya, then after their KFC meals, went to toilet, I met up with my parents & brother at mac lo.. Mummy keep asking me questions when she saw Keith & Tang Wei.. So irritating sia.. Haix!.. Get used to it le.. Just asked her to guess lo..

Gonna stop here le, later gonna call Jovi at 8.10am to give her morning call.. She's gonna work ma ;)
*Going out later*Sneak out*Hehehe*Bleahs*;P*

YoU+H dAy & ToDaY

2004-07-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, yesterday was Youth Day, thus no school for me! ;)
Got training but I didn't wanna attend at all.. Hehehe, I think I'm not gonna attend any training this week lo.. ;)
Hmmm, yesterday went out with Jamie, Eileen, Kelvin & Daryl.. Actually suppose to watch Spiderman 2 BUT in the end never cos Jamie & Eileen gonna be home early.. Hais! ;(
Hmmm, went to take neoprints with Jamie & Eileen.. We asked if the guys wanna take with us BUT they didn't wanna to.. Are guys all that SHY?! *PoNdErS*

Saw Cheryl Bok, a girl from my primary school, so happy! Cos I get to see her yesterday sia! Woah! She very femmine sia.. Wear till so mature.. Oh ya, she was with one group of friends lo.. ;)
Hmmm, yesterday town is flooded with youths! Especially bungs, passives & pure lesbians.. Almost half of Herdeen is flooded with them la.. Thought I can actually see Winne there BUT I forgot, she's in poly now.. So never see her at all sia.. *cR!Es*

Eileen bought a ROXY wallet, it's nice! Hehehe! After taking neoprints, Jamie went out with her family le.. Hmmm, went to Paragoon with the remaining friends lo.. I saw this ROXY handbag, it costs $18 dollars.. Don't know if I should get it anot.. Maybe drag my sister go see see 1st, ask her for opinions then decide to buy anot..
Oh ya, met up with Nigel also! Hehehe.. She's so cute & funny! *gOsH* when she put her finger through the ear hole, my hair nearly stand! ;P

Looked for Melissa at her work place, bought some cookies too.. After that I went home with Eileen le lo ;)

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Today I thought I was late for school, luckily I was not! Saw Want Ting, she was alone scrolling into the school.. Caught up with her not long.. Was kinda crzy today.. Hehehe! Pat cut her hair! *aRgHs* I like her hair! Can I have it? Damn it! ;P

Well, school today was so boring.. In class keep on wanna fell asleep sia.. Jerome & Alvin didn't come school today sia.. Sian diaox! Cos it seems that something is amiss.. Hahahas! ;X
Well, I think I'm really very '3-8' today la.. Was like abot flirting flirting in school..
Hmmm, alot of teachers caught me today.. Regarding my eyebrows.. FUCK THEM ALL! Asked me wash away.. Told me I'm not suppose to draw my eyebrows.. Blah blah blah! Like as if I really care.. I just ignore them la..

Went to town after school with Melissa & Cecilia.. Took our lunch at Yoshinoya, then after that Melissa left us 1st as she's gonna work ma.. Went to look for Melissa after that.. Saw 2 bungs, they're cute & handsome looking lo.. Hahaha ;)
Chatted with Melissa with Cecilia for a while, after that went to take neoprints lo.. Hehehe, girls are so vain, they just like snapping here & there or everywhere.. I've been taking photos non-stop sia.. Well chatted ahortly with a auntie working at the neoprint shop in Herdeen.. That auntie I known her for about 1 or 2 yrs le.. She's very friendly ;)

After taking neoprints, Cecilia & I went shopping lo.. Hmmm, she bought some stuffs lo.. After that went home le..
Still got lots to say in my blog BUT I think I had already recorded those important memories le ar.. Hahaha ;P

Gonna stop here le bahx ;)

I'm A+ LaN sHoP nOw..

2004-07-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

I'm at lan shop now, just finish playing gunbound sia.. Damn tired! Hmmm, going home at midnight le lo.. Hahaha..
Nothing really happened much today la..
Slept at 2am plus then woke up at about 1pm like that lo.. Can't really sleep well cos there's some quarrels at home.. Heard shoutings all in my house sia.. Hahaha..

Daddy & Mummy went out then they bought connector back home.. Sister tried to install them but failed..
As they were so noisy, I went to sleep in my parent's room.. Hais! Don't know why, as I lied down, I cried sia.. Sometimes I really wonder, why, why my family is not peaceful instead of noisy..
Don't understand why am I in this family.. My parents know little about me.. They care for me using wrong ways.. Haix! ;(
But luckily I still got my sister sia.. & friends out there who know much more about what I expected & wanna in my life compared to my parents..

Sunday or Monday maybe going out with Jerome or Teck Lee bahx..
OR PERHAPS, I'll just stay at home, slack the whole day.. Gosh! I'm broke again.. Hmmm, there's lots of people in town too.. Think they're going clubbing bahx.. lols!

Think that's all for today le bahx ;)

StUp!d DaY...

2004-07-04T03:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday sister's stead drove us home.. Hmmm, Shion felt moody yesterday.. Was kind of sad to see him in that way la.. Usually we will chat in the car but then yesterday was so different..
We reached home at about 1am like that lo.. Didn't notice that Keith dropped me a call cos my phone is in silent mote.. Intend to call her but then I think that it's late already & she got to work tomorrow(that's today..)

Hmmm, just woke up not long.. AGAIN, house so noisy!!! *arghs*
Well, Jerome called me but I was still sleeping just now.. Too lazy to answer his call.. Somemore I'm tired..

YeS+ErDaY & +OdAy..

2004-07-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

Later going BBDC with my sister, accompany her go there.. Don't really feel like going cos I'm very tired, but still, must go sia.. Well, got this mission week programme.. Went to conference room with Ivan, there'e still other people there la.. Organising some stuffs lo.. I think it's kinda fun in there.. Hehehe.. Well, yesterday after school, went to town with Melissa darling, she's meeting her sister at Lido, before that, we went to meet my friend first to get back some stuffs la.. Well, after that went to Yoshinoya with Melissa, went to eat.. Took some photos there as well.. Went to Lido with her then after that went home le..

*just quarrel with my mother*FUCK HER!!!*

What's wrong being a lesbian?! What's up with her FUCKING MIND! Just kanna a slap from her?! Hahahas! It's not painful at all.. Cos I get used to all those beatings & scoldings since I'm young le.. Who CARES anyway?! IHATE MY PARENTS! THEY GOT NEGATIVE MINDS! I HATE THEM TO CORE!!!

Reached home at about 7pm, watched Channel 8 7pm & 9pm show.. Messaged with my ex, gabriel.. Hmmm, he said he didn't see me in school today.. Guess is because I'm late for school & after recess, went to conference room 2 for a programme, 'mission week'.. Just edit my this post for a while la..

*Ian, you take care & cheer up*me have always!*Lend you my listening ears when you need* ;) tata

PARENTS ARE SO IDIOTIC! IDIOTIC ASSHOLES! WHY CAN'T THEY JUST PUT THEMSELVES IN MY SHOES? WHEN I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH A GUY OR WHEN A GUY CHAT WITH ME ON PHONE, THEY WILL HAVE NEGATIVE THINKINGS.. WHEN I'M CHATTING WITH A BUNG OR A NORMAL GIRL, THEY WILL ALSO NAG NAG NAG & NAG.. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING AROUND? COME ON LA PARENTS, JUST LET ME CHOOSE MY PATH, CAN YOU? MY HEART IS FILLED WITH HATRED.. I HATE BOTH OF YOU, DAD & MUM!!!
*i sound so pissed off, peeps, i hope all of u understand how i feel right now*arghs*

WhA+ DaY !Zz!+?...

2004-07-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

Woke up late today sia.. Almost late for school again.. Once again, today no morning assemably.. hehehe ;)
Hmmm, saw Carrick also, thus went into school with him lo.. There's homework I haven finished doing sia.. Hehehe..
Actually today got P.E lesson BUT Mr Tok brought the class to have a short video for 1 hour.. Hmmm, me & Melissa were in the toilet after we went to the staff room.. Chatted with Keith for a while in the toilet, then after we put down the phone, me & Melissa went to look for our class people, as we got no idea where they will be..

Well, went recess, ate Laksa with Melissa.. As usual, Eileen was with her Prem darling again.. Hahaha! ;)
While eating halfway, almost finishing, then I not sure if it's michelle or Clayton tap my shoulder ba.. Then that CLAYTON poured her 'Coca-Cola' into my ice lemon tea.. After drinking, tummy upset sia.. Keep on visiting the toilet..
Then SUPER unlucky sia! Kanna 'big aunt' visit in school.. What the hell.. *arghs*

Got training in the afternoon, went for training.. Met Cindy then we went to training together lo.. It's fun, today's training I like it alot.. Hehehe.. First game, I get two strike in the 1st two shots.. Oh ya, Keith called as well, didn't talk to her much cos having training ma..
Training ended then accompanied Ivan Yeo to buy ear sticks.. after that saw Melvin & Irvin lo, then we went to take a look at handphones.. After that went home le.. Took cab with Melvin, Irvin & Ivan lo.. Hehehe ;)
Hmmm, left Cindy out, felt guilty now.. I swear next time I accompany her.. Hehehe.. Cos I gonna rush home use computer ma & I gonna pass money to someone..
*I'm broke now*arghs*...

At about 7pm, bought brither to eat KFC.. Spend money again.. Spent $20 dollars sia.. Hmmm, went to NTUC as well, spent $10.. Gonna take money form daddy liao le, if not this week cannot survive sia.. Oh ya, I told Cindy that we shall go out together one day.. Hehehe, go shopping.. Wait I save money then I can spend le..

Ohhh.. One more thing! Girls out there reading my blog, now got sales at Mango & Topshop! Can go there shopping.. Sales up to 70% discount wor! ;)

Think I shall stop here already la.. Gonna use toilet.. *tummy upset*hais*!

Hmmmm, my sister went out with her stead.. Gosh! I'm so bored at home.. Stuck in this stupid idiotic house.. Boring sia.. At home only quarrel with my brother sia..

PaS+ 2 DaYs...

2004-06-30T14:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday school reopen, getting crazy about it, flirt around with my friends, hmmm, well, drop my bus card.. DAMN IT! *arghs*
Was like so pissed off, cos in class took out my bus card to take a look, then discoverd that I dropped it in the morning.. Hehehe.. I'm so careless lo.. Anyways, I chatted with Keith until 3am la.. Slept at about 4am lo, cos bath after I finished chatting with her lo.. Woke up quite late sia.. Hais!

Hmmmm, got a new teacher, Miss Sim, she ar, feeling like slapping her, give that kind of face like as if I owed her money..
Hahaha.. Well, I didn't really wanna say anything about what happen on the day of school reopen la.. Cos kinda forgot about what happened le..

Lastly, thanks to Jerome 'dear' & Gordon 'hubby', cos they helped me sell the carnival tickets ;)

Today went to school, almost late, walking halfway, Carrick was behind me & he shouted my name.. So waited for him & we walked into the school together lo.. Hehehe ;)
He very cute & sweet la, our memories were during Sec 2 camp.. What a waste.. Hais! only if time can pause there.. hahaha! *thinking too much le*

Opps! Jerome's b/d today.. Hmmm, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU JEROME 'DEAR'.. All the best in whatever you do & study hard for your 'N' level this year =)

Well, Jerome told me I'm the 1st person to wish him happy b/d wor.. Hahahas! Hmmm, so happy, cos I'm the 1st to wish him that.. 2nd is Hui Wen & then she spread around.. Wonder if Jerome got kanna whack up ma..

Life in school today is abit stupid la, dont' wish to say that much either.. kind of flirt with teacher yesterday also, my favourite & cute cute teacher, Mdm Liew.. Hmmm, well, chatted with Keith during recess.. She called me.. Happy, I'm so happy! However, I'm expecting Ian's call as well, she's busy I guess, so she never call me at all.. Hais! ;(

Hmmm, went to CCK cut hair.. On way there, saw Puala & Wan Ting, but they never see me la.. hehehe.. Oh ya, go mde a new Ez-Link card.. Quite nice la the photo cos I like it ma..

When someone told you that she likes you, have feelings for you, the feeling is so so so good! I mean, I like the feeling.. Hahahas! Hmmm, just being kinda lame.. Anyways, do I sound bitchy or slutty? I guess I'm not.. ;P

+He PaS+ 2 dAyS..

2004-06-28T07:50:00.000+08:00

25th of june is Jerome's mummy's birthday.. Happy Belated birthday! <--- For Jerome's mummy ;)

Today is Jessica's birthday, 27th og june.. Happy birthday, may god bless you! This year Sec 2 already, must work hard.. If you happen to see my blog, it's better.. Or perhaps, May see this blog, she will help me pass the message to you ba.. ;)

Hmmm, on 25th June, I didn't really remember about waht happened but I know that I was slacking at home ba.. Chatted with Eve also la.. -Faints-
She always like to say, "what shit".. I always replied her, "what thing what shit what the hell"

On 26th June, watched the Greek & France Europe Cup 2004.. Watched the 1st half only.. Yeah! Greek won France, So happy sia.. ;)
Did I went out on 26th June? Let me think think ar, oh ya, It's yesterday.. -Laughs-
Don't know what's wrong with me, keep on forgetting things.. I'm turning old alreay.. *coughs*

Yesterday Keith never call me at all.. Since morning until night.. She's busy with her work.. When school reopens, I gonna be busy with school stuffs, can't really chat with her & others anymore le sia.. ;(

Yesterday suppose to meet Teck Lee & passed him the carnival tickets & the neoprint card we took together last time.. He can't make it, he said that meet me in town, as I'll be in town.. God knows! He last minute messaged me & said that he can't make it.. Blood boiling like hell! arghs! Never mind, guess what happened next, he messaged me telling me that he can't meet me tomorrow(which is today)..

Forget it then, just my LUCK! Met up with Eve with my sister at Wisma Taxi Stand there.. Suppose to meet 7.50-8pm de lo, then Eve late for 15 minutes! Me & sister went to toilet within that 15 minutes la, after going toilet, went to Topshop.. We walked pass Fila Shop, sister was telling me that she saw her friend, Shan, her ex colleague.. Her friend is nice looking, really sexy, a malay girl.. Hahas! ;P

Hmmm, were in Topshop with my sister, then Eve called, 1st thing again, "What shit", where are both of you? & blah blah blah...
She came into Topshop & looked for us.. She wore spec today, was kinda not really used to it.. Hehehe.. Eve, if you see this, don't kill me.. You look much more better without spec.. ;)

Hmmm, Eve went to Topman, wanna change a shirt that she bought, in the end, she never.. She was telling me she can't find the shirt she wanna change.. Perhaps it's to o messy & there's lotsa people there.. Hehehe ;)

Went to Isetan with sister, then Eve went to 'toilet'.. Changed something for Eve.. Sister so good to Eve, if I were my sister, I'll just ask my stead to go change the things she wanna.. I sound mean but then it depends on who I'll be with.. =x

Went to hereen with Eve & my sister.. Went to HMV, as Eve wanna find a CD album.. We helped her looked for the CD album she wanna.. Suddenly I just can't take it anymore, gonna visit the restroom.. These few days grastic pain & don't really feel like eating at all..
Eve & sister were nowwhere to be found when I got back.. Don't know where they went to..

Went to Centre Point, Robinson to look for someone special in my heart, she's working there.. Didn't inform her that I'll go see her.. =X
She's still so cute, her eyes can made me melt, really melt..

Went for dinner after that, hmmm, japanese foods, nice nice.. Eve's treat! Hahahas! Met up with that someone special after her work.. She called me at about 9.50pm.. Met up with her, cos just wanna see her =)

Went to Plaza Singapura after that, somehow got cold fight between Eve & sister lo.. Hmmm, I don't know what to do.. However, all 4 of us went home.. Humph! It's was a yucky day!
Eve was kinda attitude when I talked to her while my sister was with my special someone.. The feeling is not good, being shown abit of attitude by Eve.. *aRgHs*

Eve went home herself.. Someone special sent me & my siter to bus-stop to take bus home.. Chatted with her, don't really dare to look into her eyes, can really melt & I'm shy.. ;(
Hmmm, she hit my head.. Gosh! Think I gonna be shorty liao le.. Hahahas! Hmmm, she pinched my cheeks too, think her hands will be oily.. Opps! ;x
I tried to pinch her cheeks back, but failed.. *hUmpH*
*Peeps, please don't tickle me, I'm scare of being tickle & the feeling is "woah"..*

*Did enjoyed yeaterday being with her for the short while*
To someonme special: shall meet up with you one of these days ;)

Lastly, I anit gonna write my blog everyday when school reopens.. Cos will be busy.. Hope you people will understand.. Hehehe ;)

Gonna go out liao le, going for movies at town.. Hey, back from town le, just finish bathing & stuffs.. Watched 'Home On The Range".. It was a nice show, if you people haven watch it, you should go watch this movie =)
Just do some editing lo.. ;)

I'm kinda sick now, sore throat & fever.. But I still eat chocolates.. It's my favourites, so even if I really sore throat until can doe, I'll still eat chocolates.. Anyways, no one will really care about it la.. Hahahs!
Okay, stop here le, gonna go sleep.. Damn tired! *B|EaHs*

25th Of JuNe.. ;(

2004-06-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

This date, is my sister's & her stead one month anniversary.. It's a memory for me too.. 25th of every month.. Last year was with this guy.. The guy that I loved once whom hurted me badly.. None other than Teck Lee.. Nowadays got contact with him, the feeling is back again.. Hais!
This date reminds me of a BITCH as well, a bitch's birthday who falls on this date.. Don't mention her le, blood boiling..

Recieved a call from Keith, she's sad la, yet I really don't know how to console her at all.. Hais, I hope she's fine..
She's a friend, a great great friend.. I just like her alot..

Well, quarreled with daddy just now, damn pissed off sia.. He thought I'm still smoking?! What the hell, everytime he heard coughings going around in the house, the 1st one he will suspects is me.. Like yesterday, sister coughed, then he thought I coughed.. What hell.. Hais!

Think I'll just stop here le..

*I miss Keith, Ian, Marissa & so many more people*

Ou+!Ng W!+H kE!+H & e!LeEn

2004-06-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm, went out with Keith & Eileen today.. Woke up at about 10am in the morning.. Sister went to take driving test today.. She's hot today, real hot, regarding about what she wore today..
Went out for lunch with my mummy, then after that we went to NTUC, bought quite alot of things, helped mummy to carried some stuffs.. There'e this old bung, actually said thanks to me when I took the washing powder.. I was kinda shocked.. I gave her a smile & that's all ;)

Oh ya, halfway having my lunch, Teck Lee called me, we chatted for a while, why is that kinda of feelings coming back again? Hahahas! It's like the 1st time that we chatted over the phone & it's like when he asked me for stead last time.. Hais! God, I'm lost, lost in a jungle, please guide me..
I like someone so much, yet she hasd someone in mind already, god, please tell me, tell me what to do..
Took Tori Teriyaki Set for lunch today.. Hehehe! Yummy!

Carried stuffs for mummy, by the time reached home was about 12.30pm, hands so painful, everything is so heavy.. Bought lotsa chocolates too ;)

Hmmm, met Eileen at interchange at 2.10pm like that, after that accompanied her to money changer.. Walked around for a while, then after that took bus 961 to meet up with Keith.. Halfway throughout the journey, saw Sherie & Yong Lin at bus stop, but Eileen & me were on the bus =)
Hmmm, the bus passed by Clayton's place, kinda missed the moments that we once used to spent, after school went to her house smoke & use computer with Yu Min last time.. Hais! That's the past, everybody is busy, busy with their new life, new start, a new term..

Reached Queensway at 3pm like that, Keith haven reach yet, she took cab down.. Saw her & I was like, woah?! Just this reaction, no comments.. ;P
Went to Mac, as Keith wanna eat something, to keep herself full.. Gosh, she ate foods damn slow lo, very slow, if I were her, I'll have alreay finish the whole meal in about 15 minutes.. She's my Papa for TODAY, only TODAY.. This Papa of mine very funny.. I could just laugh until my head drop onto the ground sia..
Hmmm, she doesn't act like as if she is 19 yrs old this year.. She's abit siao today la, but I think that somehow she's kind of sad in her heart.. Just hope all my friends can be happy lo..
Hmmmm, Keith can really shop shop & shop until siao, really, went out with her today, now legs very tired le sia.. What to do, she's my Papa Keith today, only for today, must accompanied her go shop shop & get her stuffs =)

She bought a Nike Dunk today, it was nice, really nice =(
I'm jealous, I no money buy sia, I hope I can get more Nike Dunk lo.. Next time Clayton going Hong Kong, maybe I can ask her to help me buy? *Evil Laughs*
:.:.I miss CLAYTON & WINNE.:.:

Eileen & me left Queensway Shopping Centre at about 6.40pm like that, then went to BLK 213 to meet up with Cai En, went for dinner at 24 hours coffee shop.. I ate chicken chop, damn hungry, can't take it anymore sia.. Don't know what's up with Eileen sia, she just bought 6 pieces nuggets, she ate half of them & gave me half.. She's complaining me that she's full, gosh! How on earth she can get full like that sia?! *ponders*

I ate too much chocolates, now sore throat & I'm having fever.. Yesterday night already had fever la, getting worst sia.. hais! How I wish she was here.. Gonna day-dream only la.. I know it's impossible for her to be right here now.. ;(

:.:.Ian.:.:
*I really enjoyed chatting with Ian*Sorry if I had said anything that made you angry, sad or pissed off*Huggies for you*I didn't mean what I had said, those hurtful & unpleasant sentences*

WhA+ DaY !SsI+?

2004-06-24T11:30:00.000+08:00

Chatted with Keith over the phone at about 1am.. Forward os sent Daren a message, but she called me when I'm chatting with Keith lo.. Well, was kinda sort that Daren called me sia.. Her voice nice sia! Very sweet voice, can actually feel like floating into the air sia.. Hahaha! ;P

Oh ya, Keith & me were talking over the phone about those sea creatures, blah blah blah!
Hmmm, morning she called me too, then Eileen called in too, conference call, Keith could really click well easily with new people =)
*It's a good thing*

Keith, you better not show the video to anyone anymore, gosh! I'm so pai seh, okay?! *laughs*
Aiya, don't think Keith will be reading my blog everyday la, she's busy preparing a birthday gift for someone special in her heart =)

Went for training today, my score was like SHIT! Got 126 only, but I won the other guys.. *evil laugh*
First time in my life man, to actually won them sia.. ;P
Hmmm, reached home at about 6pm, Eileen & Keith called me again, once more, conference call again.. Was kind of moody cos of my training today & something else did actually happened la..
*jealously occured suddenly BUT I guess, it's time being*

Keith & Eileen put down the phone already, then I dropped Daren a call, chatted with her for a while.. *Floating into the air*
To Daren: Sorry ya, cos yesterday talking to my friend, so didn't
really talk to you for a long time =)

Hmmmm, well, gonna go pong pong already, tomorrow maybe meeting up with Keith & Eileen lo, gosh! Tomorrow meeting Teck Lee for a while too, am I gonna hug him & give him a kiss on his cheeks? Well, hope if I gonna do that, then I think he better not turn away, cos it's just me lo, overall, it's alright to kiss friends on their cheeks & just a huggy too ;)
It sounds crazy, insane & bitchy, but you're not me, so you not gonna understand what I'm doing & why I'm doing things in this way..

Keith called, we chatted again! hahaha! Hmmm, chatted with her halfway, then daddy asked me put down phone in a very buey song manner..

Damn it man! Mummy not going work tomorrow, gosh, gonna die le la! =(

FuCk!Ng DaY...

2004-06-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

Fuck today fuck fuck fuck & fuck it so much! Just dislike what happen today in the morning, coming afternoon 12pm.. Don't wish to list it down cos I'll just find the whole thingy make me fucking angry, pissed & un-trusted by a fucking idiotic, son of a bitch & bloody fucking asshole, BASTARD!

ArGgh! Feeling angry liao..

Never mind, enojyed myself with friends today at town for lunch.. On way home, I think I saw Kris, Clayton's friend.. Hmmm, take a glance at her, she was with a lady, should be her mum cos the lady look abit 40+ yrs old.. Went to BLK 214 with Eileen, Qiu Ping & Wei Chong(best boy-freind)

Chatted with Keith too =)
I'm home liao le, gonna let brother use computer now, he very noisy! ;x

*mummy, sorry for being rude to you, sorry if I broke your heart, saying things that are so hurtful..*hope you can actually understand what I sent you this afternoon*

SuNdAy & ToDaY

2004-06-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday slack at home, then at evening, went to play soccer with my brother.. Hmmmm, hurt myself sia.. Haix! Then reached home in about half an hour, after that went cycling alone at my area that side.. Hmmmm, was kind of upset & moody, then go around cycling until I tired.. Hmmm, reached homwe, bath & stuffs, after that dad pour wine for me & sister.. Never celebrate Father's Day yesterday at all..
Chatted with Keith for a while, then my brother 'praised' her.. Damn! Sorry sia, but can't blame, my brother still a small kid! ;)

Hmmm, Daren forward a message to me, somehow messaged with one another for awhile.. Gosh! I slept halfway through messaging.. Laugh out loud..

Today woke up at about 12pm like that bahx, then I replied Daren, she never replied me half way.. Guessed she's busy with her work bahx.. ;(
Hmmmm, chatted with Keith again! Damn!!! I enjoyed today's conversation, abit 'special' conpared to other conversations lo.. *I'm siao liao le la*

Went to Eileen's house, passed her air pump for the bike thingy.. Hmmm, after that I went for bowling training.. Cindy never go training, I'm so sad! ;(
How I wish I can see her sia! Never mind, today's training SUCKS alot! My highest score only 145?! What the hell! ;(
Hmmm, after training, went home, after that met up with Eileen, went cycling with her, she was so damn fucking moody, tried all means to cheer her up.. Hope her another friend cheer her up too.. When her friend went home, we cycle to BLK 213.. After that cycle to Bukit Panjang Plaza, Park & we went to a BLK 540 to chat.. Went home after a short while ;)
Just reached home not long.. Damn tired & sleepy now sia! *sighs*

My daddy was sick, so worried for him! Gosh, just now reached home, he keep on nagging at me! I know he cares for me, BUT I'm already big enough, I know what kinda of friends I'm with & I'm big enough to actually know what am I doing & stuffs.. PLEASE DAD, GIVE ME A BREAK, YOU ARE SHOWING CARE & CONCERN IN THE WRONG WAY!

sA+UrDaY..

2004-06-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

Keith called in the morning.. She woke me up, lucky she called, if not, I don't think I can wake up sia.. Hmmmm, chatted with her for a while..
After we put down the phone, went back to sleep again.. Sister still slepping as well, actually planned to go cine to take breakfast at Long John de..
Slept till 12pm like that, then dad was at home too.. Leave house at 1pm, siblings went to look for Keith with me.. Bought her lunch, as I promised her =)
I didn't break my promise wor! ;)

Just nice, I thought I'll be late meeting Keith, reached queensway at 3pm.. God! She's was so damn busy, but I understand.. Hmmm, hope she make a great sales today.. Her friend, Annie is cute! Such a cutie.. ;)

Went town after I left queensway.. Hmmm, took cab down to Cine.. Took lunch there with siblings lo, went to Pastamania.. Found a table with 4 seats.. Sister saw Calvin & 3 girls with her, I don't know that Calvin was there with her friends as well, thus, I turned & take a look.. Calvin was kinda shocked! Hahahas! Went to the counter to order foods, then Calvin walked pass me, stupid shit! She messed my hair!!! ArGgH!!! =(
She's so much darker compare as last time.. Much more charming as well le.. -faints-
Thought one of the girls with Calvin is her stead, but when we messaged with one another, she told me she was not attach.. Gosh! Last time heard that she got a stead, now, she doesn't have one? Hahaha, Calvin is so charming now, she got a dream-girl too sia.. Wonder who will it be sia..
*hope they can last if Calvin got the girl*

Hmmmm, after that went to lan shop with siblings, go play gunbound lo, then after that went to meet my parents at Plaza.Sing.. After that went to Carrefour to buy things.. Daddy spent over $200 altogether..
Carried so many things sia, hands so pain! Hmmm, well, I'm home, thus, online & write my blog =)

Gonna go liao le, gonna go bath..

*Wei chong, I help u with ur blog by tomorrow, sorry ar, damn tired*

MISS YOU PEOPLE! TAKE CARE! *MUACKS*wINKS*

+!ReD dAy

2004-06-19T08:33:00.000+08:00

Went tanning with my sister.. Gosh! Woke up at 6.30am & leave house at about 7.15am.. We reached our destination at about 9am sia.. Tanned from that time till 11.10am like that.. Super duper hot sia! The sun is burning me! I felt as if I'm kanna cooked sia! Just wanna get abit darker ya =)
Hmmmm, guess what? Took photos wor! So happy! Hmmm, after tanning, go bath.. Then buy drink.. Keith called me when she woke up.. Was kinda shock that she called me in the morning cos yesterday kinda 'showing attitude' to her through phone..
Hmmm, she will be going town again with her friends.. GosH! Town again?! Just been there yesterday sia.. I'm scare of town now.. It seems that I always go there, go there with my friends & sister.. Used to go there every day..

Reached home liao, sleep le, sleeping half way, having dreams, Keith called.. Thanks god she woke me up, or else, I'll be sleeping till next morning sia.. Hmmm, tomorrow meeting her! Kinda happy la..
Sister nagging something, hope she's fine after a while.. Gonna think of ways to make her laugh ;)

Mummy never cook dinner at all today, gonna prepare dinner ourselves(my siblings & me).. Lazy to cook & stuffs, thus, I think that I won't be taking my dinner today bahx.. ;)

fUcK !+

2004-06-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

Went to driving centre with my sister.. Ryann suppose to meet us de, but in the end she went to snow city with her sister.. It's okay ya =)

Hmmm, I was alone waiting for my sister to finish her driving.. Keith called, she was on cab, she's on her way to town, meeting her friends.. Told her that I might be going town.. Actually not going town de, it's all last minute..
Met with my sister's stead & her friends..
Met with Keith & her friends as well.. Quite quiet when we see one another..

Date: 18/6/2004
Chatted with eileen now for a while.. Damn! Life is so fucking shit sia! What's with our life? Can someone tell me?! Why unhappy thingys going on for me & my friendS?!
Can't god just stop all these fucking shit! I'm so fucking Pissed off with my life sia!!! I HATE life alot alot alot!..
Who understands how am I feeling now sia.. Anyway, who give a fuck to me?! I'm a fucking insane bitch!

Sorry Nigel & Jovi, sorry for the fucking attitude I shown both of you in msn.. Aint really feeling good at all.. God make me realise, realise I'm so stupid, a fool & realise don't trust pple anymore, not so easily!

I wanna change, change into a brand new me, a flirt I wanna be, rather enjoy flirting, not end up getting sufferings & hurts I don't deserve!

EvE's HoUsE.. 16/06/2004

2004-06-17T14:54:00.000+08:00

Woke up at about 1.30pm today.. Took my lunch.. Chatted with my friend for a while.. Hmmm, not soon later, Ryann messaged me..
Went to sister's darling's house at serangoon sia.. Though it's far, but my sister & I still make the effort to go there..
Damn! Overslept, so today never go sun tanning with my sister le..
Suppose to go for training, but I didn't.. Lied to mummy that there's no training today.. lolx!

So tired, left house, on way to serangoon liao le.. Took about 1hour 30mins to reach there.. Hmmm.. Bought fries & drinks.. Used sister's money.. I'm so damn broke! Well, sat down at a place, waited for Eve..
Gosh! She bought her dog along too.. I'm afraid of dogs BUT I like them.. They're cute & active.. Thought her dog will bite, but it didn't..

Took dinner at Eve's house.. Hmmm, Shion & Christine were there too =)
Help Eve to find templates for her bloggy.. Left her house at about 9pm, took bus home..

Keith called me at about 9.30pm.. So happy! Cos morning, 11.38am, she called, but I was still sleeping.. Did not really expect much from her.. One call in a day will do.. That will brighten my day le..

Tomorrow going driving centre with my sister.. Ryann meeting us also! hahaha! Tomorrow meet Ryann, it's our second meeting.. Well, 1st & last time met her was last year sia..

*thanks eve for the dinner & everything*

~ends here~

Oh ya, Keith & I just put down the phone.. Hmmm, she's sick, god! Why am I so helpless?! How I wish I can take her to the doctor.. Told her to take 'pan na do", she doesn't wants to take it.. Hope that she will be okay.. As she still gonna work on weekends.. *worries*
{+".:Like you for who you are:.I mean no harm.:"+} 17/06/2004, 2.19am

ShoPpInG a+ JB w!+H fAm!Ly..

2004-06-16T03:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to JB with family.. Finally, waited for this day to come.. It seems that my family haven go out together as a whole for about 4 years le.. Mummy working & daddy working.. Yesterday was a great day, cos finally went out with family le.. SHopping like hell.. Bought 1 jeans, 1 bra set, 1 mango shirt, 1 collar shirt, 1 pair of new shoes & 1 bag(shared with my jiejie)
Spent about RM$200 plus, nearly RM$300..

Went to watched harry potter.. Damn cheap sia! Mummy paid RM$46 for 5 tickets! Hmmmm, after finished watching harry potter, then went to 'Season Cafe' for dinner.. There's a bung there with her girl.. That bung looks so charming, she has a bike cos saw her taking her helmet.. Her girl damn sexy & hot sia! Hmmm.. We took a glance at one another ;)
Harry potter is not very nice show la.. But the funniest part is that harry potter's aunt float into the air! Hahaha! ;P

After dinner, went home le.. On our way home, saw Asha at Kranji MRT there.. Hmmm, miss Thalisha all of the sudden! Long time never see her liao le, wanna hug her, can I?
A good good friend she is, that I trust ;)
Hmmmm.. Reached home liao le, then wash face, went out again.. Went to buy string.. Sister needs it ma.. After that, happen to see Terrence Ang in the alley, but he never see me at all sia.. Oh ya, went to buy sun tanning dry oil.. Gonna go sun tanning with my sister on wednesday le.. Can't wait for the day to come sia.. Hahaha!

Going to meet Levees to take transfer cord from her & meeting Keith later.. Okay, gonna go bath now liao le..
After meeting them, then I gonna come home then accompany my sister to driving centre le.. Might be meeting Eileen later bahx! Hope can meet her.. Damn! There's lots we wanna share with one another sia.. arghs! ;(

Met up with Keith just now.. Then went home after that, sent my sister to driving centre lo.. Hmmm, after that met up with Eileen & others.. Took some photos with them =)
Leave that basketball court at 6pm like that, went to driving centre again sia.. Shion messaged my sister about something to do with sister's stead..
Did I mention that Ryann messaged me? So shock & happy.. Cos we didn't really contact that much at all de..

To Ryann: You just really cheer me up through messages.. It's so damn funny in our messages.. You get what I mean? -LaUgHs- *our secret*

Just finished chatting with Keith.. She's so damn sick.. Thought she cried cos her voice sound terrible.. I'm so worried for her.. BUT don't think she really cares that much about if I'm worried & concern for her.. GOD! PLEASE, I WANNA KEITH TO BE WELL!!!
Keith, you better see doctor if you condition get worsen ar.. Aiya, what hell am I doing.. She might not be reading my blog as well.. :(
She's so damn sick, should be resting le bahx.. *ponders*
date:16 june, 1.54am

Notice: just add some more things in this post ;p

{!'m M!SsInG yOu So BaD|Y, dO yOu KnOw?} ;(

aT hOme

2004-06-14T14:10:00.000+08:00

I was at home the whole day.. Damn bloody boring sia! Chatted with Eileen through the phone this afternoon till evening.. Chatted for a long long time & sharing with one another stories..
Tomorrow I'm not going for bowling training sia.. Going JB with my parents.. Going there in the morning till night.. Won't be able to online & chat with my friends.. Sobs!

Gonna miss you people! *muacks*

To Ian: Just now that message, just ignore it COSI sent wrongly..

Alrites.. Now waiting for my sister to be back home then I can have my chocolate le.. Keith must be damn tired right now after her work.. Anyways, when you going see doctor? Tell me when then I'll see if I free, then I accompany you lo.. Keith, you sleep early! B|EaHs!

Shall stop here le.. Gonna call someone le ;P

+HeSe FeW dAyS..

2004-06-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

These few days so yucky & sucky.. Don't know why cried these few days.. Think about my past time with my ex-girlfriend.. Haix! So sad! She told me she will turn straight, then why why come back to me again?! You are the one who let me go, why beg me now?! I really don't know what you wanna.. Can you just let me go?! I like someone ELSE!!! You choose to let me go in the past, so you should not regret & come back to me again.. Get this clear! I'm not your toy, OKAY?!

To Ian: Ian, thanks for cheering me up in our last conversation.. Yesterday feeling damn down because I can't cheer you up & that fucking ex-girlfriend of mine suddenly contact me & another person whom I'm worried about, you should know who bahx..

To Keith: Sorry, yesterday give you a fucking attitude through message.. Was just feeling damn damn fucking down & helpless.. Sorry, broke my promise that I had made.. But I told you before, I'll try to quit smoking.. I'm trying damn hard.. Heng ar! You forgive me, or else, I don't know what to do sia..

To sister: Hope you understand what I'm going through.. Sorry about the whole incident yesterday..

To Eve: Lucky got you to cheer my sister up for me! Love you lots lots! hahaha! Sorry for all the trouble that I created..

To Shion & Christine: Sorry for all the trouble I created yesterday, & thanks so much! ;p

Went town today then after that went to eat.. hahaha! Hmmm.. Feeling damn down again.. Perhaps is cos i got my monthly? opps ;x

Went to see doctor today sia.. $24 for a bottle of drops?! What the hell?!!! Keith called, sorry, really hungry, thus, never chat with you during your break.. Don't angry ar, later you become more & more old sia! hahaha!
Hmmm, reached home at about 5pm.. Dad went out to buy toto, 4D & stuffs.. Was at home with my brother.. Went to bath then after bathing, went back to my room, switched on my air-con sia! hahaha, so cold!!! Just when I'm changing up halfway, my brother came in.. SHIT! I'm half-naked lo!!! But lucky, I quickly took my towel to just cover my upper part of my body.. Lower part already wear le, so never mind la.. Next time must remember to lock my door sia.. So pai seh sia! But he's still young la, so maybe wont't care so much anyways.. hahahas!
Hmmm, sorry peeps, if I ever become so cold, ignoring you & stuffs.. Cos mood swings la..

take care peeps!

To Keith again: Happy working! I'll buy you lunch one of the weekends! ;p

S!GhS..

2004-06-11T16:47:00.000+08:00

I wanna you to know, I'm just treating everybody the same, you're also my friend, why can't I treat you as good as the others? Can't you see? I'm just treating my friends good! All those that are good to me.. I'll just stop liking you one day, I SWEAR! Stop that kind of 'cold-blooded' attitude, it anit gonna bring you anywhere.. I now treat you as my 'big-bro', can you just believe me? <*it's still ur decision*>

If you wanna me to hate you, I won't & I'll NEVER! I know what I'm doing.. I dun wanna make life more messed up for you.. You just need time to clam down.. I hope my 'big-bro' will be fine..
Anyway, you will be starting work soon, just keep youself busy & get things off your mind..

*i'll pray to god to watch over all my friends*

PeEpS.. Th!S pOs+ !S aB+ hOw ! FeE|

2004-06-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

Didn't get to online the past 2 days.. Now feels great that I can update my blog le =)
Hmmm, yesterday wasn't really good.. Went to Suntec to fetch my sister after her work.. Saw her darling there as well, when I said 'hi' to her darling, her darling never look at me.. =(
So sad sia.. Sister's darling BULLY ME!!! =(
*maybe she's shy*hahahas*

'He' called last night, feeling so damn sad.. Don't know what to say sia, just so disappointed that 'he' changed so fast, within one day? It's okay, cos I understand what 'he's' going through.. I did cried during the conversation.. Don't ask why, just cried out.. Haix! Hope that 'he' is someone that I 1st met..
Okay, let's stop here.. Cos I don;t wish to say anything anymore..
*SaD*sObBy*

Went to pass my friend charger.. Then went to driving centre with sister, after that went to buy lemons because she & her darling wanna make 'Honey Lemon" drinks.. After buying lemons, I accompanied my sister to serangoon.. After that, went home alone le.. I don't wanna be a light blub la.. ;x
*hope sister's darling feeling better now*

Chat with Ian just now, thanks so much, thanks for cheering me up! At least I feel better.. Where are my friends when I need them?! BUT luckily got you sia.. Hey sorry, waste so much of your time.. Did feel abit better now..
*Just trying to be happy, how only you know how I'll feel*
take care ar! ;p

$uCkY dAy

2004-06-08T14:57:00.000+08:00

What the hell, I'm alone at home since morning till noon.. Switch on computer & do my bloggy sia.. Keith call not long after.. Chat for a while.. Was so happy! hahaha!
Well, on music damn loud! I just love myself so much.. I like somemone, does she knows that? I hope she does.. haix! =(
Was online then suddenly everything was like is a mess, cant see what my friends type to me in msn, just lots of dots.. Restart my computer then..
My PTS msg me in msn, told me that she called me ytd BUT I was not home.. Thus, I told her that I went out with Keith..
Got a short conversation BUT I'm happy enough & can't ask for anything more in return le =)
She offline after our conversation.. Chatted with Keith & Wei Chin online.. SHIT! It's gonna be 2.20pm sia, I haven bath & get ready for my training.. Faster change my status to 'away'..
Was back after my bathe, then talk to Keith for a while telling her that I gonna go for training le.. Told that to Wei Chin too..

Was actually late for training BUT my coach even worst than me.. I reached the venue at 3.05pm, yet he reached there at 3.35pm..
Took photos with a girl using Ivan's camera phone.. Was abit siao today, so took my friend's cap & wore it sia =)
Bowling like shit today, didn't really have the mood to train.. Perhaps I'm too tired.. HELL, a stupid bastard anyhow touched me today.. I gave him a punch on his belly.. It's so bouncy sia! hahaha!

After training, went to take neoprints with Cindy, Melvin, Samuel & Ivan.. Damn funny.. I'm scanning the neoprints later ya =)
Reached home at about 6.20pm like that.. I wanna sleep! so tired la! ;(
However, I didn't cos I chat with my friend on the phone.. Don't know what's wrong with me sia.. These few days keep on chatting with people on phone.. Parents were unhappy cos they thought I'm chatting with my stead.. GOD! I'm so innocent, can? Actually got a stead, but we never contact le.. Feel so happy! Cos it's better to silence break.. hahahas ;p
Sister is not back home yet, I miss her so much! =(
Wanna wait till she's home then sleep.. hehehe!

Today damn sucky!!! Cos it's so tiring & I'm sick =(
Only taken 3 breads for breakfast, lunch & dinner.. Didn't really feel like eating at all.. Stomache somemore.. How I wish I wanna die, smoke my life off? It depends.. Maybe one day, I'll just kanna run down by a car, hope I can & I wish to.. ;P

SuNdAy.. Ha!S.. =(

2004-06-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

Part One...
Keith called in the morning, 10 plus in the morning.. Was sleeping soundly, suddenly phone just ring, of cos I picked up cos it's HER! Lolx.. Hmmm, if it's others, I won't pick up le.. ;x
Chatted with her for quite a while & she told me that her sim card was with her dad, can't message her or call.. SO SAD! =(
Help her called her friend.. Humph! Dad thought I'm talking to some guys sia.. What the hell! In the morning woke up, dad gave me one stupid face, really feel like slapping him! Keep on staring at me sia.. Haix! ;(
Hmmm, sister meeting her darling at serangoon sia.. My sister really crazy over her darling.. Went out with sister together, but we're going different ways.. She went to meet her darling, while I went to meet up with Keith at her house there.. It sounds insane BUT I just love to travel around.. Was damn tired & sleepy.. Board the bus, intend to sleep BUT I'm so nervous sia.. Scared that Keith will get a shock to see me, cos I got a big pimple on my face & my dressing today so boy boy & normal.. Aiya, heck care, it's already the past & I'm at home complaining to my BLOG?! Lols! So stupid sia..

Continue the my story..
Part Two...
Reached lakeside mrt station there.. Gonna go to the opposite bus stop to take bus to Keith's house.. I board Bus 240 & was told to alight at jurong secondary school.. I'm SO STUPID, CAN?! I didn't know where is that school & I took until some places whereby there's lots of construction workers around.. Never mind, luckily I manage to get to her house.. I'm so nervous again, First time meet her sia.. Her house only she's alone.. She's very vain I can see COS I think she took a long time to style her hair bahx.. ;x
At first we didn't really have much to say, cos we're shy? Hmmm, took cab to Jurong Point, looking for jackets cos Keith wanna to have one =)
It's damn crowded over there & sometimes when I see too many people, I'll feel abit giddy.. Didn't really get a jacket there, then we went to queensway shopping centre.. Walked around there, saw my schoolmate there ya =)
Went to IKEA after that, what we done ar? Let me recall, oh yaya, we went for dinner.. It was a super super interesting part of the day.. She ordered roasted beef & I ordered honey chicken.. Payment everything already settled, so went back to our seats.. There's some vegetables & one scoop of potato & chicken meat on my plate.. Keith asked, 'you know what's that anot?' & I replied, 'It's smash potato.'. Well, she thought that I don't sia.. Humph! We were somehow staring at each other & laughing la.. She helped me cut the chicken meat into pieces COS I don't know how to cut.. She's like my mummy, done everything for me which I really can't handle.. Can I call her mummy?! Humph! Better don't, later she kills me & she aint that old either la ;x
After dinner, we sat there & were very quiet lo.. She's thinking of something, so does I.. Thinking about the past lo.. Done some talking & decided to go beach road to look for leather shoes for Keith BUT it's already late, so we went back to queensway to shop again.. blah blah blah.. The story continues..
Can I stop here & continue Part Three?
Here it goes...
Part Three
We went home after leaving queensway shopping centre.. Borrow her my friend's digital camera.. We manage to take photos.. hahahas! Hmmm, we reached her house le, then she sent me home.. Just seeing me board the cab & she went home..

She's was home le, asked me how's things going on, later telling her my story, so ya, shall stop here le =)
~!~!~ENDS OF STORY FOR TODAY~!~!~

*It's always gonna be a memory for me, cos it's SPECIAL ;)*

T!R!Ng DaY

2004-06-05T18:28:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 3.10pm like that today.. Took my 3in1 meal at about 4pm.. Was online for a while & after that went to suntec city to look for my sister after bathing..
When I reach there, my sister told me that a security guard kind of interested in her & she feel so disgusted cos that security guard really cannot make it sia! Like those NERDS, wearing think spectales, untidy uniform & long socks! *Feel like giving him one tight slap sia!*
Okay, let's not talk about that DISGUSTING security guard.. *pUkE*

Sister off work at 11pm & after that, her darling pick us(sis, shion, Calvin & me) up.. We went to Holland.V for supper lo.. Guess what! We saw a actor, Weng Qing Hai there.. He's damn yandao sia! Hmmm, we ordered some foods & managed to finish them.. Got lots of coroaches there sia.. Calvin & I were scared of those coroaches.. hahaha!
Hmmm, after supper, sister's darling drove us home.. ;p
I'm so damn tired NOW! Waiting for my sister to bath finish sia.. *aRgHs* FINALLY she's done.. Gonna go bath liao le.. -ChAoX-

Pa|Aw@n BeAcH

2004-06-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

Went out at 8.30am today, met up with sheng min & jonathan tan at bus stop near Pending Lrt Station.. Went to Palawan Beach, went there to sun tan while both of them went there for swimming.. There's a lot of small kids there as well! They're quite cute lo.. Hmmm, saw my schoolmates too, I think they're too busy with their boyfriends that they din really notice the 3 of us bahx..
After all activities, went to pong pong, I really don't understand guys, why they pong pong so fast sia.. I already pong pong very fast le, then when I came out, they were at 7-11.. GoSh!
Leave Palawan Beach & went home.. Fell asleep on bus, suddenly Keith call.. *yawns* Woke up le.. Was reaching home.. When I looked at the time, it really freak me out! It's 3.45pm & I gonna meet Nigel for movies.. Rush like hell sia!
Reached home le, pong pong again & changed up.. Ran out of house very quickly sia.. Took cab down.. Almost late sia.. Nigel, if u see this, would like to apologise for letting you to wait for me outside cheers ar =)
It was a nice day, enjoyed myself alot.. However, Thanks to sheng min, jonathan tan & nigel! *for making my life abit better*
Without your company, think i'll be bored like hell ;p

LASTLY, Thanks to my darling jie, desiree, for helping me to create this blog =)
*love u lots*

juz create

2004-06-04T11:58:00.000+08:00

Desiree here.. finally done wif my mei's blog.. hope she like it..